*sigh*...

time passes so fast...

in a blink of an eye its 17 days to my ROD...

these 12 months of being an NCO seemed like only a few months... half a year at max...

and just round the corner i will be sitting for my O levels...

as to weather i will be going for COC at the end of the year and come back as a CLT, i dont know... Maybe, maybe not... we'll see what happens...

i shall start crafting my "goodbye speech" for the charlies...

@#$%!

i wont waste my time typing out a long post about today.

i will just say this. "mdm tong is a smely mother fucker."

this concludes my post. bye.

zzz...

i'm loosing confidence... maybe its for the best that i don't do it at all...

xian...

i can wear my Unit T to lan, arcade and all the funny funny places where school shirts are not allowed...

today i went to K-Pool for the 1st time, and i was wearing my Unit T.

guess what?

i. got. kicked. out.

how pro is what?

i are pro.

as the post title says. i are pro. chinese oral today. teacher was liu zheng bo... >.< he mark strict like some doggy...

1. i went to the chair and sat down.
2. looked at the passage, couldnt a heck load of words.
3. gave up and started looking into space.
4. went to liu zheng bo.
5. started reading.
6. read 1st paragraph he ask me stop.
7. conversation, some topic on respect or discipline or w/e cant be bothered to remember.
8. i said "urrmmmmmmm" for 10 secs then started crapping some stuff.
9. i figured i said like 9 sentences and he asked me to stop.

my oral took a total of 3 mins to complete. cool much?

and ohh yea! did i add, 3 mins is my new record. the previous was like 5 mins or so.

zzz...

26 days... and we will see the results...

i'm a space bound rocketship and your hearts the moon,
and i'm aiming right at you,
250 thousand miles on a clear night,
and i'm right at you...

argh...

i swear next time when i think of something i will write it down... i keep forgetting what i need to do, or i remember what i need to do but cant remember what i wanted to write or where i was supposed to get the damn thing from...

i wanted to use some song lyrics but out of a sudden i cant remember the damn song... and i cant remember the lyrics also...

facepalm... again...

argh... i decided to try to read it again... well i read the 1st like 2 or 3 months worth... then decided to just read the more interesting ones... but i must admit i still skipped alot... >.<...

facepalm...

when i say i will do something, i will make sure i do it... its just a matter of when...

so a few weeks back i said i would read everything there... (not gonna say what it is but you can guess i think, maybe if your smart you'll get it right)

so just now i went there and started reading it...

but wth... it dates back from 4 years ago... thats alot of stuff to go through... >.< and yea i got bored reading it...

zzz... dont blame me! at least i tried!!!

i are pro.

i am just pro. supposed to have tuition today... but i didnt feel like going... so guess what i did? i pulled people out to go lan with me. :P

xian...

a chance is still a chance... no matter how small it may be...

sore throat...

zzz... i am having a sore throat these few days... but today i opened the fridge and saw a bar of chocolate... i couldnt resists the temptation and ate the whole thing... all 125 grams of it... and now my throat srsly just hurts like hell... >.<...

hiax...

its that small chance that keeps me hanging on...

yay!

ok. blog links are fixed. I just linked all those i know, including those who's blogs are dead... lazy to make mu own code to i used blogger's :P

bored...

since i'm bored and got nothing to do... i think i'll just fix the blog links... Maybe do it with my own code if i am really bored...

removed links

i removed the links to other people's blogs cause i found that many of them were broken / or the blogs were deleted. and i am very lazy to go fix them... so i removed the blog lists...

this doesnt mean im anti-social!!! im sorry that i removed them... being me, i am simply just too lazy... and want to take the easy way out...

holy shitz...

i got my report book back yesterday, wanna guess my L1R5? Nvm, i tell you, 45. pro rite?

i swear after ROD imma be a freaking nerd and study everyday.

family today today... had to do saikang... took 2 1st buses to school... and still reached school at 6.20am...

misses PDS comp... heard lots of epic stuff happened...

who does all the epic stuff happen when im not there... >.<

and when im there... nothing interesting happens... >.<

hiax...

zzz...

haiz... i want to express my feelings... and not keep them bottled up... but every damn time i log on to blogger and want to start typing... i just cant write anything... but when i lie on my bed thinking... i can think of all sorts of stuff...

i are pro.

k so last few days i kept saying that i would be a good boy today and attend my 1st AP of the year.

well that was true to a certain extend. i attended AP for 3 mins.

anyway i WAS suppose to have tuition from 6pm to 9pm. but the pro me only attended 1.5 hrs of it. (dont ask me how)

stupid is stupid.

yesterday i went on to youtube cause i wanted to listen to songs. so i wanted to listen to "sex on the radio" by Good Charlotte. but guess what? i couldnt load the video cause the parental settings my bastard of a father put on my comp listed it as PORN.

fail much?

bloody idiot... srsly...

ok, so last thursday, some idiot knicked my filed off the canteen bench... i was wondering who the hell would want to steal my file... its not like i keep my cash inside it... and my notes arnt the type of godly notes that you read and get full marks for your test... in fact my notes are the last on earth you want to steal... their half blank for gods sakes...

so today i want to find ivan spencer wong to see if anybody found my file and passed it to him. and guess what, somebody did... if i find the idiot who TOOK my file and then GAVE it to ivan spencer wong i swear imma kill him/her.

zzz...

argh... i know i've failed... but then again i still want to hear the answer from you in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i just cant stop thinking about you...

for you, i'll do anything... even if it means walking to the end of the universe and back just to accomplish it...

i just wish that you were right here next to me... but i know that wish will never come true... cause the impossible just doesnt happen... its called impossible for a reason....

for gods sakes... i really cant think of how to express myself today... it has taken me half a damned hour just to write this... >.< i've wrote stuff then deleted it and wrote other stuff again countless times...

sigh...

ok, its been some time since i last posted anything here... 1 and a half months if im not wrong... anyway i'll be doing some updates about my life... they wont be in any particular order...

well some idiot stole my file the other day... i left it at the canteen bench outside air room... together with my bag... who the hell would want to steal my file? its not like the notes i do are godly or anything... srsly... what the hell man...

Well ive been skipping AP and remedial... up to date ive only attended 2 maths and 2 english remedials... and none out of the 4 AP sessions...

ive been staying back almost everyday after school to play with the rifles and do PDS till like 7.30 almost eveyday... then walking with the charlies to the bustop at AMK Hub then taking the bus back with 2 of them.

Well ROD is in 2 months time... plus, minus a bit... gonna be real sad when i ROD lol... dont know where i will go after school everyday...

up to date... i've failed every damned test except 1... FYI im a PURE bio student, and i passsed my 1st bio test in 2 years by 2 marks.

i swear im gonna study hard after ROD... i cant screw up my own future...

if you know me well, you'll know that im not the kind of person that gives up easily... i usually say i want to do something, try to do it, fail and get all pissed off and say i dont want to do it anymore. but a few days later i try it again, most of the time i succeed, but there are instances where i fail...

and now, i think this is a time where i fail... we'll ive been trying some stuff, what it is i will not say... but some of you may know... well it was going fine... until i did something which i didn't think through properly before i did it... and now its all screwed up... i want to try again... but i'm scared that by doing so it will just aggravate the situation...

well, i guess it was a longshot from the start... and they are called longshots for a reason... well i still want to hear your reply in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i guess its better to be able to say that i tried and failed rather than i never tried and regret it now...

i really don't want to give up... but it looks like the odds are not in my favor... i guess when life puts an obstacle in front of you sometimes, it wants you to take a different path... and not to find a way to overcome the obstacle...

As years go by,
I'll race the clock with you.

When you make mistakes,
I'll take the fall for you.

So let me light up the skies,
cause it was you i waited for.

You'll always be in my heart,
Until the end of time.

I'm sorry that i failed you... Please forgive me... But don't forget me... For i won't forget you...