Zzz...

comments my part wrote about me:

-can smile more
-can bond more
-very funny
-can say funnier jokes. sometimes a bit kuku
-quite nice, can bond with us, dont keep swearing
-always scold "dude". quite nice
-SMILE!!!
-guided us well, can be more cheerful during trng
-face abit funny, childish but fun
-strict/fierce
-strict at times, interactive. smile more
-funny at times. emo... sentimental...
-try to :)


so basically i need to:

-smile more.
-bond more? (some say can bond some say need bond more... -confusing leh)
-stop swearing
-be more cheerful during trngs
-be more interactive (some say interactive some say never talk enough... wth... >.<)
-be less fierce? O_o

srsly... i swear i dont say "dude"...
emo and sentimental << wth? who write de >.< i where got emo?!

screwed up day...

today had bio test... i totally did not study for it... i doulbt i will actually pass it... the question on what bacteria was used to culture insulin in labs, i wrote Lactobascillius idk where the heck i actually came up with that word O_o and i have absolutely no idea what is a trachea O_o

anyway today was the 1st day without weizhe. i swear it was a freaking wierd feeling O_o usually i will go out of the air room and talk to the Charlies before they start their training. so usually weizhe will be there and we will start talking crap. but today there was no weizhe, and he not taking part in the conversation was just, well, wierd...

aero training today was damn xian... but the comments that they wrote about us at the end of the training was entertaining O_o i really dont get it how i am very serious during aero trainings O_o cause personally i find myself quite slack O_o and come on srsly... i dont smile enough? and how am i fierce during aero? i dont even scold O_o anyway the comments were really entertaining :P

...

k ive decided to start another 2 campaigns...

1st campaign: swear less. i know that to stop swearing completely is an impossible task for me, i am going to swear less. in view of this, i have removed the 2 obscene pictures from my blog.

2nd campaign: i dont wanna say what this one is about. but you guys might find out soon enough. O_o

im sorry...

to wei zhe,
i'm sorry for not being able to send you off to the airport at the last moment... it is not because i dont want to, it is because i am not allowed to... i will admit that im not in very good terms with my parents and they were being dogs again today... i will also admit that as i am typing this i am indeed crying, i just regret that you are not able to see it before you leave...

staying in a big house is good... but there are stuff that you dont actually realise... having a big house means having alot of money... alot of money means that your parents work long hours and you hardly get to see them... which means that you will not be anywhere near close to your parents... i will admit that on average, i speak less that 5 words to them each day... asking for permission to go for or to do something is like... i dont know how to explain this but asking them for their permission is a very difficult task... firstly cause i hardly see them... secondly they dont really know me very well and that means that they dont really trust me...

to prove this point, i shall give you an example... today i sms-ed my parents that i wanted to go send weizhe off at the airport. they didnt believe me... my mom actually send a text to miss chew asking her if any of my classmates were migrating... now i know the reason how miss chew know when she asked me who was the friend migrating today in class... miss chew replied that she didnt know and would ask me, but never got back to my parents. (im not saying its her fault in anyway) my mom send me this "i have asked miss chew about your classmate (i never said it was a classmate) and this is her reply. ( i do not know of anybody in the class who is migrating. it may be a friend of his or from another class or level.) if you are not telling the truth, don't got to the airport later on."

they also forced me to go home, which is the reason why i am not at the airport now but at home typing this... 1st thing i stepped in the house they started screaming at me about telling lies and stuff like that... i will tell you, they are total fucking assholes... (i am trying to swear less on my blog posts but this is one of the special exceptions...) usually i just let them rant and rave at me, cause i know that what ever that i have to say to defend myself the won't believe me... but no, today was different... i could'nt take it any more and i argued back... i was so angry that i let a few profanities slip out... i just hope that they dont ban me from comp for another 3 months... cause that was what happened when i sweared the F word at my father the last time...

to be honest... i would rather live in a normal HDB flat with parents that actually trust me... and not rant and rave at me when they do not know the truth... sometimes i even wonder why i was born into this family and wish that i had actually been born into another better family...

weizhe, i have said this many times to you before but i will say it again... i have really enjoyed my time with you and wish that i had more time to stuff with you and the charlies... i wish you all the best for your future (again) and please stay in contact with us... i will never forget you and i hope that you will always remember us... farewell...

i will post the pictures and videos i took this afternoon tomorrow when i get home... provided my SD card does not screw up...

bai bai...

ok so im pretty much speachless atm... im not one who is good with words... yet alone farewells... usually its just a goodbye handshake and i never see the person again... but i swear this is gonna be different. i planned to cry on rod. but since you wont have a chance to see that. i will do it for you tomorrow... on the condition that somebody else agrees to do it to. anyway so ive heard that your flight has been re-scheduled to tuesday at 9.30am... sadly this means that we cant send you off... i actually planned to get you a farewell gift... but i may not be able to do so now as the date change was very last minute... but we'll see what i can rush out... worst come to worst i treat you to something tomorrow... im really at a lost for words now... all i can say is that trainings from now on will never be the same again without you there... no more bloody bugger that pins all his badges but forgets his nametag... no more idiot that starts shaking his head when he makes a mistake when giving commands... i seriously want to say more, but then again i seriously cannot think of any more to say... so i will just abruptly end it here... once again... farewell and best of luck in all you do... dont forget us... and always remember... we will never forget you...

your platoon mates actually suggested to me that we pon school on tuesday to send you off at the airport... i hope you realise that you mean a great deal to them... seeing how they cried at the playground today suprised me... cause even the guys cried... i admit, i actually did shed a few tears at a point of time...

for the rest of the charlies... i will do an individual dedication for all of you guys when i ROD... so in the mean time, wait patiently...

so now you're gone...

this post is dedicated to one of my cadets... in 3 days time he will be migrating to Perth, Australia and we will most probably never get to see him again...

To "him":
dont know if i should be sad and cry, or to be angry and slap you... i know you cant see this... but with the deepest sincerity from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all the best in your future endeavors...

when you need cheering up, just think of all the shit you went through with all of us...

most importantly, don't you ever forget us...

i find it very unfair that you have gone through 3 years of shit with us and have to leave now... just a mere 3 months before you guys take over... and by jove are you a big case of wasted talent...

3 months to your most enjoyable year in NCC and you are going to miss it...

you have been an exceptional cadet with lots of leadership qualities... and i have really had a good time taking you... be it during training or just talking crap...

i wish you all the best in the years to come, and please... go get a facebook account so that all of us can keep in touch with you... you leaving is sad enough for us, not being able to be in touch is going to be much worst...

Sincerely,
sgt kianwai

argh...

so my weekend was totally boring... had to wake up early on sat cause i had 3 hrs of tuition... sucks... after tuition came home and slept... sunday was boring also... woke up, played comp, went to the library, came home and slept again.

was very bored to i ask on fb to see who wanted to go for a bike ride. ended up going with snr choon kian. stepped into the shower when i came home after my ride... leg felt pain as hell... realised that i scrapped him leg on my METAL bike pedals somewhere along the trip and didnt know...

got physics test tomorrow... and guess what? my physics textbook is happily lying under my table in school... kianwai.gg-no-re.com.org >.<...

other random updates

O lvls are this year... i know i need to study but i just cant get myself to study... xian man >.< teachers keep saying 10 months of hard work will guarantee you 65 years of payouts...

again im in this fked up state... (again) and no! for those who know who the other person is, it isnt about her this time!

decisions, decisions, decisions... yes? or no? if yes, there is another question... do it? or dont do it... if do it, do it now? or wait till later? >.< argh... cant make up my mind... and if do it, i dont have the guts to! so how can i do it?! >.< demoralizing ttc...

so i'll end off this update with something...

life offers many difficulties in exchange for a few moments of happiness...
these moments are worth a life time...

13th jan, saimen's bday :P

so saimen's bday was coming up. i decided to plan a bash for him. so i went to get stuff for his bash on monday. bought choc sauce, sparkling wine and starch flour (total cost 13 bucks btw) then i went home and put it in the cupboard... went for tuition after that... halfway during tuition my mother called me... made an excuse saying i needed to toilet to answer the call.

Mother: did you buy a bottle of chocolate sauce?
Me: yes. why?
Mother: your sister just drank it.

in my head i was like shiiiiiiit >.< that bottle of choc sauce cost $5.30 if i remember correctly... so after tuition i went to get a bottle of soya sauce to replace it...

on tuesday after school, i went home and was feeling hungry... raided the fridge for something to eat and guess what i found? my bottle of chocolate sauce, half empty >.< buried at the back of the fridge... probably my sis's ingenious plan to hide it from me...

decided to blash him on thurs. so we waited until the charlie's fs training was over. but LC went to scold them so we wernt in the mood to actually do anything... but wth, while they were practicing pds outside the field after training, some random fellas started chasing saimen and started to tau-pok him O_o so i ran into the air room and took the stuff out.

sherrill was taking the soya sauce and i keep shouting at her "dont pour on me! dont pour on me!" in the end she poured it on me also >.< saw dominic drinking the choc sauce, snatched the bottle from him and poured it over his head :P saimen was very pityful with all the stuff over him, but i wasnt satisfied :P i rubbed the leftover choc sauce and starch flour into his hair :P

saimen decided not to change before going home. so he walked home in his dirty tshirt and pants :P

wanted to give him his present (a bottle of cologne) after his bash but i forgot to bring it >.< so i gave it to him on friday instead :P

Well saimen i hope you had fun :P cause that cost me 15 bucks! but well, i can tell you this. those were the best 15 bucks of my life :D

cca orientation

ok had cca orientation on the 1st saturday of january (cant remember what date that is and cant be bothered to find out) ok heres the stupid thing... Leslie's plans for orientation all failed... they were all turned down by the clts/teachers... day b4 orientation leslie came 2 school early to practice taxing in the parade square... tan song hau saw him and said that he couldnt do that... sucks to be him... so basically 1 plan down... all out effort to decorate the plane wasted...

so i got to wear a fake staff sergeant rank for orientation :P pretty cool really :P whole of part C department having ssg rank :D well orientation wasnt that bad. After orientation went 2 market to eat. then went back to school where we had a chat with the sirs about crap stuff :P had a chat with my part also bout some things.

the pds people played with the sparkling wine sir junli bought to celebrate. feroz found a left over bottle of china coke from CUG council and poured it all over weizhe lol!

holidays

ok so my holidays were pretty boring... was going back 2 school everyday for aero stuff. epic though, had no tuition during the hols so i was very happy... tuition is a dread for me... during the hols i ran out of games to play... so anybody wanna recomend me some? no maple and shitz like that... ohhhh yea... i am happy to say that i did not touch a single book or do a single piece of homework during the holidays. except during conquer O that is... dreaded going back to school... why does the holidays past so fast... my 2 and a half months holidays felt like only a week or 2... >.< O lvls this year... i know i need to study, but i just cant get myself to study...

updates

ok, its been quite a long time since i've posted anything here... close to a month actually. and im very bored today so i'm gonna do an update.

Things to update
1. holidays
2. cca orientation
3. saimen's bday
4. some other crap