sigh...

ok, its been some time since i last posted anything here... 1 and a half months if im not wrong... anyway i'll be doing some updates about my life... they wont be in any particular order...

well some idiot stole my file the other day... i left it at the canteen bench outside air room... together with my bag... who the hell would want to steal my file? its not like the notes i do are godly or anything... srsly... what the hell man...

Well ive been skipping AP and remedial... up to date ive only attended 2 maths and 2 english remedials... and none out of the 4 AP sessions...

ive been staying back almost everyday after school to play with the rifles and do PDS till like 7.30 almost eveyday... then walking with the charlies to the bustop at AMK Hub then taking the bus back with 2 of them.

Well ROD is in 2 months time... plus, minus a bit... gonna be real sad when i ROD lol... dont know where i will go after school everyday...

up to date... i've failed every damned test except 1... FYI im a PURE bio student, and i passsed my 1st bio test in 2 years by 2 marks.

i swear im gonna study hard after ROD... i cant screw up my own future...

if you know me well, you'll know that im not the kind of person that gives up easily... i usually say i want to do something, try to do it, fail and get all pissed off and say i dont want to do it anymore. but a few days later i try it again, most of the time i succeed, but there are instances where i fail...

and now, i think this is a time where i fail... we'll ive been trying some stuff, what it is i will not say... but some of you may know... well it was going fine... until i did something which i didn't think through properly before i did it... and now its all screwed up... i want to try again... but i'm scared that by doing so it will just aggravate the situation...

well, i guess it was a longshot from the start... and they are called longshots for a reason... well i still want to hear your reply in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i guess its better to be able to say that i tried and failed rather than i never tried and regret it now...

i really don't want to give up... but it looks like the odds are not in my favor... i guess when life puts an obstacle in front of you sometimes, it wants you to take a different path... and not to find a way to overcome the obstacle...

As years go by,
I'll race the clock with you.

When you make mistakes,
I'll take the fall for you.

So let me light up the skies,
cause it was you i waited for.

You'll always be in my heart,
Until the end of time.

I'm sorry that i failed you... Please forgive me... But don't forget me... For i won't forget you...