New Blog Song!!

Ok this song is even more awesome then the last one!!
Spend 4 mins of your life listening to it!
You won't regret!!

Blog Song

WHEN YOU VISIT MY BLOG! STOP FOR 3.5 MINS AND LISTEN TO MY BLOG SONG!! CAUSE ITS AWESOME!!

I <3 SNSD!!

Fail outing..

Supposed to have Homies VS Alpha Falcons today @ Bishan Active..
But it the rain had to spoil everything..
Ended up sitting in a circle and playing games like murderer, truth or dare and hmm.. cant remember what else..

Dragged my lazy butt over to J8 after that and got my shoes..

Starting work tomorrow..
You guys better be happy..
You guys have FRIENDS disturbing you at work.. Tmr my PARENTS confirm come find me di xiao xiao..
I guess this is what happens when you work at the nearest shopping center near your house.. >_<..

Waking up at 6am for work is going to be punishing.. Considering i've been waking up at like 10am..

Homies Outing!!

So Amanda acted like she was some emo kia going for the outing and pulled me along.. And you should know by now I am a VERY lazy person..

Anyway.. Train services were crap that day, so Amanda's dad drove us there. And we ended up like 40mins early..

Sat on the seats in the mall, then Qoopa came and saw us, then we dumped ourselves at the MRT.

Met up with the rest of the guys, went arcade, then lunch.

Bowling after lunch, dunno why i failed at bowling that day.. I ended up with like 50+ points? usually i do 80+..

Ice skating after that.. Fell like some idiot.. But it was fun :D

Arcade again after that!

Then train down to somerset where we met the Vikings going for dinner.

Played truth or dare, Ryan and Pan Liang wore the leotard that Qoopa brought!
WHY SUFI NEVER WEAR?!

Raining like hell, so we dumped outselves at err.. cant remember where..

Went to Scape after that and played more games.

WE SHOULD DO THIS MORE OFTEN :D I'LL MAKE SURE IM NOT LAZY TO ATTEND :D

Africa

K so, I went to Africa from 1st to 10th december.

Day 1
Plane scheduled for 11am. Had to be there at 9am..
My father decided to have breakfast at the airport, so we had to leave at 8am..
And he woke me up at 6am.. >_<
I dont take 2 hours to change and shower please ffs..
My father, geh kiang go book cab in advance, end up book some Mercedes lol!
Cab fare, $34 from house to airport.
7 Hour flight to Mauritius. Moved back 4 timezones.
So my day ended up to be close to 40 hours..
That damn hotel we stayed at, they charge you for every damn thing.
Dinner, dun serve water, 500ml cost USD 4. They sure do know how to rip of ppl money.
Down there got internet, yea, USD 28 per hour. Crazy i tell you.

Day 2
Flew to Johannesburg, 5 hours flight, move back 2 time zones.
2 hour bus trip to the city where we went on a small tour.
Then 4 hours bus ride to the game reserve..
Basically this whole day was travelling.
Reached the reserve at bout 9pm at night..
But dinner was awesome i tell you.
Game Drive after dinner. Cold like hell i tell you.
Temperature 15C, but the wind makes it become 10C
Saw some Hyaenas, zebra, antelope and stuff like that..

Day 3
3 hour Game Drive as soon as we woke up at 6am.. (sun rise is before 5am there)
Saw some animals, i cant remember what..
I'll upload the photos to FB and let them do the talking.
Had breakfast at like err 10am i think..
Had some bush walk after that.
I tried so hard to avoid all the animal shit but they were all over the place..
In the end i gave up trying..
Lunch after that.
Didnt eat much cause breakfast was still in my stomach..
Helicopter ride after that! :D cool stuff.
Went back to the lodge and slacked for 2 hours.
Another game drive at 4pm..
Went to the lakeside where we were supposed to have some cruise.
Rained on the way there..
Camped at the lakeside lodge for half and hour..
Dinner after that.
Dinner was awesome as usual.
I think i only ate meat for dinner, roast chicken, roast lamb, roast pork.

Day 4,5,6,7
Putting 4 days together cause i cant remember what i did on each day..
Left the game reserve early in the morning, drove to the airport.
Flew down to Cape Town, 2 hours flight.
Visited some gem factory.
Table mountain, damn cold place..
The wind there.. 30km/h, you literally see the clouds get blown away.
Cape Point was damn cold also, climb up to some light house, i came down cause the wind.. then it blows, you literally cant walk. (yes its that strong)
Theres pengiuns in africa also! who knew?! yea i saw the penguins.
Lemme think what else i did..
Ohh yea, cheetah reserve. there were fences so i didnt get eaten.
Seal island, took a boat out, that place got an estimated 6k seals. at first i thought they were seaweed floating in the water O_o
The Waterfront. Huuuuge shopping mall beside the ocean.
Volvo Ocean Race being held there also, crowded as hell.
Ohh and yea, i went into a casino, you jelly?
Visited the Ostrich farm where the have the World's Shortest Osrtich
Wine tasting after that. I swear i drank a whole bottle O_O
I think thats bout all.. i cant remember..

Day 8
Basically another travelling day...
5.5 hour flight back to Mauritius, move up 2 timezones.
2 hour drive to hotel..
Reach at like 10pm..

Day 9,10
Drove 2 freaking hours for some 30 minute ocean walk..
They dump a metal helmet on your head, pump air in and let u walk on the ocean..
They attract the <>< with bread and they literally swarm to it.
The helmet, the glass to look out, got paralex error one..
The <>< like right infront of you, you reach out, cannot reach..
But still i manages to grab a <>Drove another 3 hours back to the hotel.
Dumped myself in the pool for an hour, showered and off to the airport again..

The damn plane.. Transit at KLIA..
7 hours to KLIA where i did nothing for 2 hours waiting..
Then 45mins to SG..
Lunch at Burger King.
Taxi back home.
The fare this time, $18 only lol!

I tell you, never take Air Mauritius, sucky airline.
The baggage got FRAGILE sticker, but when i collected it, it look like some lion tried to eat it.
Come back open, my giraffe ear broke off.. >_<

Pictures will be uploaded on FB whenever I don't feel lazy. :P

I'm back..

Ok, back from Africa.. Photos and post when i feel like it..

Damn sleepy.. Not slept in the past like 50 something hours..

Prom Nite!!

Had prom last night, and damn was it a blast!!

Maigai somehow got chosen for the "shuffling competition" all of us were shouting "maigai maigai"

Today I woke up with a sore throat, and my voice now sounds like a G6 cause of all the shouting last night..

Maigai did some super epic dance, everybody was teasing him afterwards lol!!

Ohh yea!! While Bing Xian was in the toilet, we put chilli into his water, hid his chair under the table, and replaces his plate of chicken with bones :P funny ttm!!

Nothing much to post about, guess I'll let the pictures on Facebook do the talking.

After all, a picture speaks a thousand words no?

REDcamp

So had redcamp this week, could only go for the first 2 days.. What a waste.. Cause the 3rd and final day was the best day..

Day 1 was pretty boring.. But the food, damn was it good!!

And I don't know who's stupid idea it was.. But we wore our class tee.. Which obviously had our names printed on it..

A few SL tried to get to know us lol, had fun mixing our names all around.

And damn did something funny happen!! Jesmine found out that she is an "accidental" baby from her thumbprint :P had a good laugh at that.

The liquid nitrogen thing was cool too!!

ANSI realized.. The SLs.. All 自 high one.. :/

Day 2 was abit more exciting actually o.O

First day, our mission was to get ourselves into the same sub-tribe.

Second day mission was to not get separated from our sub-tribe.

Lol right?!

SLs made us join with a bunch of girls from CHIJ Katong Convent during lunch. Played some ionno wat game with them. But there was no way I was gonna hit their thighs as part of the game lol! For a bunch of girls who don't have much interaction with guys cause they're from a girls school, I think they were actually very open and friendly o.O

Prom clashed with 3rd day of redcamp, some of then went in the morning and left before lunch, but I had to collect my pants, so I gave it a miss..

I is freeee!!

O levels is over, we is no needs to care wat we are talking now!!

Ok that's lame..

So as mentioned above, O levels are over and I'm free!!

My room and study room are now free of my books, worksheets and ionno wat else.

I can finally see the top of my table again!!

I thought I'll heck of a time after Os.. Guess I'm wrong..

Why you ask?

Well first of all.. My comp is dead.. >_< Everyweek end, my father go out to ionno where.. Can't ask him to fix it for me.. So now I have no form of entertainment.. Sore ttm..

Well my sister went to Malaysia for a week. No annoying little thing to steal my junk food and hog the tv for a week!! Weeeeeee!!

Hope I can get my father to fix my comp tomorrow lol..

Another reason I'm bored is, im not getting a job till I come back from holiday.. And its not til next Thursday I fly off..

Xian!!

Why I take pure bio ar?!

People finish O levels already, and I still got paper tomorrow!!

>.< god damn!

wth..

Who knew I'll get so bored during the free time before the last 4 papers..

Xian like a dunno what at home..

So I've been doing really lame things..

This for example:
훗 << is it just me? or does it look like a man wearing a hat?

Yes I know I'm lame.. Shuttup will you?

O level updates..

English - Screwed it up..
Predicted grade - B4 maybe.. if sway then got C5..

E maths - Good :D
Predicted grade - A1 (unless bell-curve very high..)

A maths - No hope.. can pass i happy alr..
Predicted grade - Hopefully C6.. But i think will be D7..

Chem - Very good.
Physics - Calculations, all correct, definition and explanation i think here and there will loose some marks
Predicted grade - A1 hopefully..

Geography - Quite confident. Best thing is 4 themes all come out, ALL never mix!!
SS - Not bad, studied a few chaps and they came out for essay, lucky ttm!
Predicted grade - B4 if im lucky

Thats all for now

Random thoughts..

As years go by,
I'll race the clock with you..

When you make mistakes,
I'll take the fall for you..

So let me light up the skies,
Cause I'll die for you..

Until the end, you'll always be in my heart,
Cause it was you I waited for..

You are my only one..

O Levels..

Yes i know O levels are tomorrow! Don't lecture me on why im still here blogging at this time!

I'm going to give each paper 100m, that means its the last 1.5km of this stretch of the race! Endure endure!!

Got sick of all my techno songs.. So i went searching for new songs to listen to.

Now i cant stop listening to songs by SNSD.. Or stop watching their MVs.. With some help from a friend, i can now at least identify almost all 9 of them, still i get some wrong sometimes.. But its an improvement!

But..

Why must their damn comeback be now?! Screw it man! So many live shows i cant stream from the net cause i need to study!! @#$*&#%#@$@#%$%

AND WHY THE SONG I LIKE NO MV?! <>< <>< <><

Argh, i dont know why, but as the papers get nearer, the less i feel like studying..

And yes, i admit, among those rare times i feel nervous, I AM FEELING FREAKING NERVOUS NOW! My legs feel wobbly, literally.. >.<

Sometimes like now, the only way to express my feelings is with the help of profanities.. But i shall stick to the no profanities on my blog rule..

So here goes..

Why the freak does it always not work out?! What the freak am i doing wrong?! One mother freaking chance! One freaking chance for it to go right! Is it that freaking hard to give me one god damned chance?! Screw this shit! Now i won't even be able to see you again, so what am I supposed to do about that?!

Screw this.. I'll just put these stuff out of my head.. Its not gonna help me with my revision..

Graduation

So, graduation was yesterday, couldn't have asked for a better one then that.

Thanks guys for all the funny/stupid things we did yesterday!

Went for lunch with some ppl at foodcourt before heading to school.

They showed many touching videos during the assembly. Surprisingly not many ppl cried O.o

Me and Dylan went: "bet you $100 Celine will cry watching this" but she didn't cry!!

Said bye to the teachers after the assembly. Funny how it seems like the teachers are more sad than the students O.o

Took pictures with classmates after eating the food. Jump shots were fun :D

And Sam made history!! Nice one Sam!!

Watched real steel with them afterwards.

Had a great time yesterday.

See you on the flip side guys!! Study hard and all the best!! :D

Ohh and exactly one month from now, we will be freeee!! Endure endure!!

Ouch..

Today i decided to skip school.. cause going to school now is really just a waste of time..

Who knew somebody wanted to punish me for skipping school..

Woke up at bout 8.30am this morning.. Brushed my teeth and went down to get breakfast in my *blur mood* (you know the way you just wake up morning and you're just in a daze?)

Went down the 1st flight of stairs (from my room to 1st floor) and then then second flight of 5 stairs..

Took 2 steps and *whoo* slipped on the wet floor, went airborne and landed *wham* on my ass.. >.< somehow in the process of landing, i hurt my left hip, back of my right ankle and my elbow..

I figure my hip and ankle just took a small tap from the fall cause it doesnt hurt anymore now..

But my elbow.. thats a whole new story.. think it took more than a tap cause it hurts like hell! but im sure its not dislocated or fractured.. >.< that bone at the back of my elbow, everytime i rest my elbow on something or poke it, it hurts like hell!!

Thing is, its not swollen or anything.. gonna see how it is tomorrow and then decide if i should go see the doctor.. >.<

Ohh did i mention that i skipped school to study at home? Well to hell with that! my elbow hurt so much i couldnt write a damn thing!

So much for wanting to study..

Anyway, its about 15 days to the start of O Levels.. Think i need to study more each day..

By the way.. Anybody got a study group i can join? or you wanna form one?

1 month and 1 week till freedom.. Endure endure!

Ohh, one last thing. To hell with COC! Associate Member FTW!

No power? Who cares man?! Just come back dixiao xiao can alr! After all, you can't toss me around like I'm some soft toy anymore! If you do, or attempt to, I swear I'll kill you on the spot.

New blog song!

If you have been visiting my blog.. Even though its dead.. You will have realised that i have changed my blog song :D

Current blog song: Simple Plan - Astronaut

I think the song is damn good, and the lyrics are very meaningful.

Plus it suits my blogskin perfectly! You know, astronauts, space, you get the link?

catching up with life..

Prelim 2 is over, results are out. I did ALOT better than in Prelim 1, but still I'm not happy with my results..

Worked my ass off for combined science and E maths, but got B4 for comb sci and B3 for E maths.. >.<

On the positive side, i passed my Geog and SS for the first time in my bloody life!

Confirm that I'm going to poly, and out of my 5 subjects, i just need to work on A maths and combined humans.. The other 3 subjects are basically alright..

30 days to O lvls.. All i have to do now is work harder..

So recently alot of stuff in my life is going wrong.. >.<

Everytime i say to myself "Its going to work this time!" and end up, something, somewhere goes wrong..

I'm just asking for one chance.. Srsly.. Is it that hard to just give me one bloody chance.. >.< i swear i will give it my all..

And recently, i dont know why.. I keep getting myself into tough spots or awkward situations..

What else can go wrong in my life..

Miracles happen right? Well i need 2 of them now.. One is for O lvls, and another is for something in my life.. >.<..

wth..

k, ionno if i should be happy or go jump off a cliff, cause i'm going to South Africa for holiday this December..

hiax...

22/8/11 11.33pm
I wonder what happened to "no regrets".

19/8/11 10.57pm
K fuck me. No regrets. No guts no glory.

Hiax...

The higher you climb, the more painful the fall...

Each time i try, i learn something new thinking that the next time i will succeed, only to realise that i failed even harder than the attempt before...

What stupid logic is that?

Updates

So Prelim 2 is bout 2 weeks away... After seeing my Prelim 1 results i think i've finally woken up... >.<

Very busy with tuition, work and studying now...

Thinking of dropping A Maths but i think i'll give it another try first... If my Prelim 2 results still suck i'm gonna drop it.

Somehow the Duel Masters trend has been revived O_o 4/4, 4/2 and 4/5 have started playing again O_o

Finally got something that i've been trying to put behind me for a long time off my mind. Feels so much better...

Not touched anime for quite some time, only watch it sometimes on Animax.

*Blog song has been updated also*
(Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood Opening 4, Chemistry - Period)

Ohh my comp crashed also, maybe its for the best anyway. No intention of getting it fixed.

Prelims Day 1

Prelims started today... 3 bloody papers in 1 day man wth...

E maths was ok I guess. Quite confident.
But guess what? I forgot to bring my long ruler and curve ruler.
So I bent my 15 cm ruler and used it to draw the curve...

Chem was ok also. I can safely say all the tuition payed off.
Still I think I made some really stupid mistakes...

English paper was a bore as always... 30mins doing, 1hr 10mins sleeping...

I've decided not to study for combined humanities this time round.
Don't have the time lol...

Ohh the new principal is an idiot... >.<
He screwed up out time table...
Each period is now 35mins.
And there's 3 periods of maths in a row... >.<
And also 3 periods of SS now... >.<

Ohh did I mention that we now have classes till 4.15pm >.< ...

Updates...

Well my holiday basically didn't seem like a holiday at all...

Mon till Sat, tuition from 12-5... Damn xian...

Holiday homework not done as usual.
Only this time I don't intend to do it...
Those 3 compre papers can just rot in a corner.

Dragged my ass down to Vivo and got myself a Crumpler bag. All the other colours were out of stock, so I only had the choice of the red one...
I feel stupid. I endured a 50min bus ride to Vivo. I took a train back and it only took 30mins...
An extra 20 mins wasted just cause i was lazy to go to the train station...

stupid Facebook...

Damn Facebook.

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Xian ttm...

Argh my holidays have been stuffed with extra classes and tuition... >.<

Best things is.. I've got Tuition from 1 to 5 every damn day this week and next...
What makes things worst is that tuition is at bugis... >.<

So I was thinking of getting myself a Crumpler bag O.o but I'll get it only if I'm able to drag my lazy ass to orchard...

Zzz...

As our lives go on,

I want to hold your hand and talk about our dreams,
and while I sleep, if just for a moment,
I want to be in your future.

Recently something happened to my heart,
and I've just been falsely blaming you.

You run away in shock,
while I quickly chase you like an idiot to say "I'm sorry."

These repeating days, have worn down my soul.

You tell me to "grow up," I get it,
but I'm just not that simple.

As our lives go on,

I want to play side by side with you,
and while I sleep, if just for a moment,
I want to be part of you.

Hiax...

Sometime I wonder and ask myself, why did I do it in the first place...
Cause now I really feel crappy and there's nothing that I can actually do about it...

I swear that this is the biggest mistake I've made...
And also the biggest regret of my life...

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine...
So I could go back in time and undo the mistakes that I made...

Thoughts keep running through my mind...
"What should I do now?"
"What were you hinting at?"
"What will happen in the end?"

I swear it's tormenting me...
It's like bell that keeps ringing continuously at the back of my head...
Its irritating...
And it keeps bothering me...
It just won't leave me alone...

Why did I even start something that I know I would never complete...

O.o

Either more people are viewing my blog than i expected, or my blog stats are screwed.

Ok I think my blog stats are screwed... 34 blogviews on a day that I didn't post anything... And an average of 3 or 4 views when I do actually post something...

Looks like Kian Sam is at the top of the list for blogviews followed by some jajas who see my post via MyBlogPost on facebook.

Zzz...

TMD... >.< yesterday I decided that from today onwards I would study in the study room cause studying in my room has resulted In my table being clutted with books and worksheets...

So this morning I moved all the stuff on my table into the study room... Then I went out for lunch. Had a 1 hr nap after I came back.

When I woke up there was some guy in the house. So I asked my mother who it was. And guess what?
The day I decide to study in the study room, my mother has to decide to change the cushions on the chairs in the study room... >.<

Best thing is it's going to take 2 weeks to replace the cushions...

So I had to move nvm everything back into my room... >.< and now my table is even more messy than it was this morning...

Why...

Why can't I stop thinking about you...
Nothing I try works...
I just can't seem to get you out of my head...
I cant seem to forget about you...

I swear this feeling sucks...
This feeling of confusion...
It's eating me from the inside out...

Should I try again?
Or should I just let you go...

I can't figure out what you were hinting at...
I'm afraid my decision isn't the option you were trying to tell me...
In that case what would happen...

It's ironic...
I keep saying to myself I'll try to stay out of your life...
But everytime you go online I can't resist starting a conversation...
Cause I do actually enjoy them...
Cause they are full of crap and nonsense...
Drifting from one stupid subject to another...

These conversations actually make my day...
And cheer me up after I've had a crappy day...

Some part of me hopes you won't be reading this...
But another part of me hopes you will actually read this...

Hiaz... Indecision gets me no where...

Tabidatsu...

Cherry blossoms dance under the chilly spring sky.
You march on, with dreams and hopes upon your shoulders.
I want to send you off as you begin your journey.
I should have done that seriously today.

I placed all my smiles in a bouquet of flowers
that I am sending to you along with a message:

Thank you for laughing with me.
Thank you for crying with me.
Don’t worry, you will be fine.
Just keep going straight in the path you believe in.
I opened my heart only to you
I am telling you my screets and all.

When it gets really, really hard,
You can just give me a call.
You’ll be okay, no matter how far apart we become.
You’ll be okay because I will always be your friend.

Even if you get married
Even if you grow old
No matter how much time passes
You will be my best friend I proud of.

The overflowing fake tears you set free deceived me.
On the other side of the moving window,
Your figure gradually draws further away
As you wave at me.

Thank you for laughing with me.
Thank you for crying with me.
In the times that keep changing
you keep marching on without changing.
Good-bye,
It starts from now on.
Good-bye,
I will always be your friend.
You will be fine,
You are not alone.
You’ll always have a place to go back to,
Right here.

hiax...

Its the day before O Level Chinese exam... and i'm having a fever... sway much? >.< anyway who cares... its only chinese... a subject i'm doomed to fail...

so i'm gonna give it another try... i'm not gonna use swear words online at least... damn, crap, bastard and screw are not counted...

recently somebody told me something very helpful.

You want to jump from step 2 to step 4!
Your missing step 3!

Best thing i've heard in a while man.

I'm not gonna let it go so easily. Gonna work on step 3.

updates...

I know i have not been posting for quite some time... this is cause i've been studying for my MYE... YES! I have been studying... But despite all that i still only passed 2 subjects... >.< is it the way i'm studying? or i'm not studying hard enough? i swear this is the hardest i have ever studied... Didn't do as well as i thought i would... Here i'll give you an example...

"If i fail geography i'll slap myself" *fail* wtf?!
"If i fail physics i'll not play comp for a day" *fail* WTF?!
"If i fail english i'll not play comp for another day and forfeit my cash items" *fail* WTF?!

PTC later on today... I think i'm going to get slaughtered... I figure my L1R5 is about 45... plus minus a bit... >.<

Had some "motivational talk" yesterday... Totally boring... >.< And totally useless in my opinion... Spent the time slacking instead of listening...

Went back to see the Charlies's first training as an NCO last week... Wasn't too bad actually... Just some minor mistakes here and there... Happy to see how good they have become... Keep it up guys! But still, you know what my request of you guys is... Settle it quickly... Or you guys will regret... I've been getting a few request for me to go see the trainings... But you guys have to understand that i need to let go... If u want, I can come... But not that often... Maybe once a month or something like that...

Seems like my holidays aren't going to be holidays at all... Packed full of extra lessons... And guess what? They go through the whole day... 6++ Hours or physics and maths a day... How the hell to tahan... >.<

With all these extra lessons, how the hell am i going to find time to actually study for Prelim 1... Argh... >.<...

epic shitz.

Last paper today... Practical exam... Which I screwed up the Physics part... I know its only MYE, but it feels like O Levels are over... >.< LAN-ed with kianny, shei, leslie, saimen today. Blackshot-ed with brendan, js, andrew, bq, shawn err i think i missing 1 name i cant remember who :P Damn fun time today. Not had to much fun in ages... Last match they sore :P deny me of my MVP!

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...

why...

I hate this feeling... its so damn botherly... i wish it would just go away...

haix...

Flowers for your hair,
Rainbows for your eyes to see,
Your dreams are everywhere,
To carry you away from me,

Ohh there she goes,
So beautiful,
Shes flying home...

Ohh there she goes,
So beautiful,
But she said she don't know who i am...

when words fail...

when words fail to express what you feel, you use pictures...



sometimes i wonder whats on your mind... i hate to see you so sad.. and yet theres nothing i can do to help you... i really wish that there was something i could do to help ease your pain... but you won't share whats bothering you... and that doesnt give me any options...

Can't dream without you...

When you close you're eyes and go to sleep tonight
I'll be right outside you're door
Dreams will come and take you away
Let them bring you back to me

And tomorrow when you wake
I'll be next you
From protection from the day
When the tears fall down you're face like morning dew
I'll be there to put a smile on you're face
And I'll say ...

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

Let you're fire burn bright the world to see
You are the better part of me
When you hold my hand and I'll swear that I believe
I'm living in my wildest dreams
And I see ...

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

Flowers for you're hair
Rainbows for you're eyes to see
You're dreams are everywhere
They'll carry you away from me
Away from me someday

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

stupid...

mixpod is stupid... srsly... i cant add songs i want to my play list, it keeps saying "video not found" >.<...

ohh well...

it took a much longer time than i expected... 15 means staring at the 1st send screen where u choose contacts... another 20 mins staring at the 2nd send screen... finger hoovering over the *send* button...

well at least it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would...

but as much as possible, i'll try to stay out of your life...

I'm sorry...

haiz...

i've decided... i'm doing it tonight... then, i'm letting go for good...

Aussie Idiot...

So, the aussie idiot has returned on a visit trip... he came to school today and wth his hair is so long and he has grown so tall O.O well he got raped in the air room :P

Bored...

I'm bored to a point that i've began to watch anime... wth right... unbelievable you say? well that just illustrates the fact of how bored i am... but shit i did study for like 6 hrs today also...

Watching Bleach... Currently at episode 13...

I wish I were like the rain...

Sometimes i wish i could be like the rain...
If i were, then would i have a way to connect our two hearts together?
The way the rain connects with the earth and the sky...
Even thought the two never touch...
With each day that passes, I think that I've come to understand you at least a little bit more...

1 week...

its been exactly 1 week since ROD... and i'm still damn sad... my phone no longer rings cause no more messages are pass down... i no longer see my platoon mates in the afternoon and talk crap or do stupid stuff with them...

since ROD i vowed not to touch the rifles again... on thursday some idiots boxed me in, pryed open my fingers and stuffed a rifle in my hand... THANKS A LOT AR GUYS! so i was like wtf since i touch already might as well do some stuff...

sigh...

well its been exactly 24 hours since ROD and already i feel like theres somethings missing from my life... my cca... my platoon mates... my part... and of course Brother...

ROD...

ROD parade today... im both sad and happy... im happy that i can finally focus on my studies, but im sad as i will miss both my platoon mates and the charlies...

To the NCOs '10-'11 thank you all for those cards that you guys have made for me. i really appreciate them...

To the Charlies, thank you for that Oreo Pillow and the photo :P i have really enjoyed taking you all and i wish you guys all the best for your NCO life... If you guys did not get the post you guys were aiming for, remember this, don't be sad, cause EVERYBODY has a part to play in leading the unit.

To Junli, thank you for being such a wonderful Part Sergeant to us in Sec 1 and also for being such a good CLT. In my opinion, you are the best CLT we have ever had. Once again thank you so much. I will miss you Brother! Don't forget the NCOs of '10-'11!

I also apologise if the dedication are not very accurate as i actually started writing them about 2 weeks before today... cause i find it really hard to write stuff about people...

Last Salute...

Dear Charlies '10,'11

Well, my term as an NCO has come to an end, and I must say that this one year has been the best year of my life, many funny, interesting and epic things have happened.

I must say that it has been an absolute honor to have been your APS for this past year. I have had a really fun and enjoyable time with you guys. You all say that I am very fierce as i always scold you guys during trainings, but I am actually a very friendly person. Don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me, I don't kill for gods sake :P

I must also admit that during this one year being with you guys has changed me alot. If you don't believe it, ask anybody from my batch and they will tell you the same thing.

I am sure that you guys are very happy to be taking over the unit as NCOs. Promise that you will do us proud and take the unit to greater heights.

To end off, I shall give you guys some words of advice. Treasure your time as an NCO and make full use of it, cause this one year will come to and end in a blink of an eye.

And next time you see us don't be afraid to say Hi! I will always be willing to hear what ever problems you guys have, so don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me on msn :P

I hope that you guys will not forget us as we will never forget you all. Thanks for all the fun and laughter that you guys have brought into my life.

I wish you guys all the best in the years to come.

-Kianwai

I've also wrote something for each of you :P

Bendy: Fun, interactive and jumpy. But can be abit sotong at times :P knows when to have fun and when to be serious.

Michelle: The "aunty" of the part. Very loud and booming voice :p Can also interact very well, easy to communicate with.

Hui Qi: The "silent killer" of the part. I still can't forget the incident of you staring during PDS comp :P Try to talk more. And louder also!

Sherrill: Fun, Interactive and jumpy. ^^ << Likes to use the cute face. But doesn't realise she isn't cute at all. Just jooooking :P

Brendan: We can all see that you have changed alot. Keep it up, but there is still room for improvement. And i still can't figure out why you like the word "mystifying" so much, after all, whats so fascinating about that word?

Andrew: Likes to go fly kite :P You need to interact a bit more, share your problem... Don't keep them bottled up till its too late...

Dominic: Joker the part. But lean when to joke and when to be serious. Stay the joker you are and continue to entertain your part :P

Jia Sheng: Don't be so blur :p We can see the effort you are putting in, but there is still room for more :P

Bing Qian: Biggest sotong of the part and biggest i have ever seen... Stop being so blur!!!

Hao Ze: PT enthusiast, but don't kill your man! You need to speak clearly. Slow down your words also, your not rushing for time.

Shawn: You need to learn when to say what things... Don't go off and say stuff about people if they are better than you at it...

Deming: Sotong no.2 You need to have a faster reaction time. And stop the neck bending and eye rolling!

Xuan Zhao: Finally taking over as the "Unit's Tallest Man" :P You need to stop being so lazy...

Hassanul: I hope after taking over as a NCO you will stop skipping trainings... You need to put in more effort. Learn to be serious when you need to be.

Sean: Another joker of the part who cant stop laughing. With Saimen gone, who you gonna laugh at?

Bryan: Sometimes i pity you... Even if somebody doesn't come, during sizing up you are still the 1st from the left...

Wei Zhe: You bloody bastard, make out lives so damn bloody difficult... But still it has been very fun and enjoyable taking you for that 9 or so months before you left... Don't come back with an aussie accent!

Last salute...

Dear NCOs '10,'11

Well, our four years in NCC Air has finally come to end, and I'm sure that you guys have enjoyed it as much as I have.

I don't really know what to say, but that you all for making these four years in NCC so fun and enjoyable.

Special thanks to the members of GLSKF for doing all those epic and non-sensical stuff to make all of us laugh, and also for all those funny jokes too.

Lets try to stay in touch for as long as possible yeah? No treating each other as strangers after ROD :P

Best Wishes,
Kianwai

Hey i almost forgot, i've wrote something for each of you guys also :P

Luo Cheng: Hi Mum! You have been a very good mother to us in this past year :P But i still remember the times in Sec 2 where i thought you were very fierce and violent :P keep wacking me for skipping trainings lol :P

Shi Xian: To my MANLY Dad! You've been very good to us too :P You can be very sotong at times and I had a lot of fun teasing you :p

Eddie: You are still as childish and as cute as ever lol. Still remember the times I used to bully you. I wonder if your butt is still as jelly as it used to be :P

Kian Sam Who knew you would be such a bloody fierce NCO :P But still you know when to be fierce and when to joke around. I'm writing this ahead of time, so good luck with "you know what" :P

Wen Shei: aka Smelly Old Man, the silent killer of our part. Always keeps quite, but when he speaks he says stuff that totally just pwns :P

Satviender: Very noisy and loud :P I'll always remember how we argue about all those small and useless stuff...

Jeremy: Likes to slack off in the middle of trainings lol. I like your style! But its been fun being around you during aero :P

Jun Xiang: All i see you do is take photos and print them :P Why never take photo of me?! Ohh yea, did i mention your another silent killer :P

Bonn: To be honest, you were one of the last people I thought I'll actually be good friends with, cause of the many differences between us. Me being in aero, you being in PDS, and also cause of our different streams... But hey! Look at us now :P Thanks for teaching me all those PDS drills, and always lending me your phone also :P Gonna miss you after ROD...

Part C Department '10,'11
Rowena: We've been through lots of ups and downs this year together with the charlies. We may not always agree on everything but we still pulled through some how. I admit that sometimes you are a bit guailan, to prevent anything from happening I usually just walk away and dissapear to the air room or some other place. Thats why you don't see me sometimes... I still like making fun of you cause you can't rest your hand on my shoulder :P (not that i want you to) Cause if not got somebody come arrest me and put me in jail :p

Saimen: We share alot of things in common, initially we didn't like the post given to us, but now both of us have no regrets about it :P The request you asked me, I've decided to follow through with it... I'll forget the grudges... I'll miss you after ROD man... Cause we are of different streams and we don't really see each other besides in the air room... You need to learn to share your problems with people, don't keep your feelings bottled up. I'm always there and willing to listen if you want to talk about stuff :P

Members of GLSKF

Gabriel: The Dua Tao of the group. At first i wondered why you were the head, but then you started to show your true colours. Pwning everybody along the way and always finding reasons to slack. Epicly lazy fella, always leaves his stuff in the air room for long periods :P

Leslie: Hey, these 4 years with you have been really fun and enjoyable. Being in aero, trainings or just slacking around. I know i make fun of you, but i don't mean it :P Stay the joker that you are :P

Seow Meng: I have alot of stuff to say about you, but I just can't think of any right now. But you are the most guailan fella i have ever seen. Thanks for entertaining us with all your funny jokes and all those random shit. I'll always remember how you got stuck on the fence and got lolpwned by ants :p Stay the joker you are :p

Feroz: Hey Blackie! Its been an absolute pleasure to have you around in the past 4 years. I know i always joke about you, but I don't mean it :P The only thing i regret is being one of the reasons why you swear so much now... Gonna miss all the fun times we had together... I'm still gonna hug you every time i see you, don't worry about that!

falling stars...

when you forget me
and you don't remember my name
not even a memory
somewhere in the back of your brain
i won't be offended
cus i always knew that the day would come and
i'm not enough to make you stay

you tell me it's not possible
no way that we could break
but nothing is illogical
believe me
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars cause
i'll never get over you
cause you are so
beautiful
yeah

the world is turning
and time keeps on lingering on
the sun will be burning
eventually you will be gone
i'll always love you

believe it or not
baby thats not enough to,
not enough to stop these

falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you cause
you are so
beautiful
yeah

when its all said and done
i'll be just a spec in a galaxy
floating further away by gravity

you tell me its impossible
no way that we can break...
like falling stars....
like crashing cars
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up just like
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you
cause you are
so
beautiful

you are so beautiful
yeah

2 days...

2 more days left to ROD...

Bunking at Smeng's house Friday night :P

Practiced performance like crazy to day...

Hope i don't screw up on saturday...

4 days...

4 more days to ROD... happy but sad at the same time...

6 days...

its 6 days to ROD... parents say they are gonna come and watch... but i don't want them to... >.< screw them... kaobei dogs...

7 days...

ROD is exactly 1 week away...last 7 days as an NCO...

Had a long talk with Sir Junli yesterday... after hearing all that stuff, i changed my mind about coming back as a CLT... At most i'll come back as a senior to help...

I got raped yesterday... Got dumped in the canteen basin and spammed with water and soap... but me being a smart ass, brought an extra set of clothes cause i knew i was gonna get raped sometime this week or the next :P

sorry...

i'm sorry that i failed you...
its just that things did not turn out like how i predicted they would...
i doubt you are reading this, but i am really sorry...
i'm just afraid of the outcome...

zzz...

i've made my decision... i will not do it... i've been thinking and i think its better off that i hold back... cause the consequences will not be very good...

this one of the very few times i am actually giving up on something that i really want to do or achieve...

10 days...

the countdown as started... 10 days till ROD... some part of me is happy... but some other part of me is sad...

Whats to come...

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you are the one...

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know

Only One...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't pick up the pieces
I've thrown my words all around
But I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
I'm on the verge of giving up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't get up when you're gone

Something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one...

zzz...

they say people change when given responsibility...
will you change for the better?
or take a turn for a worst...

well i can only wait and see... and hope that i have made the right choice...

Friday 1st April

So yesterday was april fool's day :P

we decided to prank miss chew, miss ng and mrs ismail.

as for the prank on miss chew i don't know how it went cause being friday i need to fall in. the plan was to message her saying that we had high fever and would not be attending school that day.

for miss ng, we decided that Samuel and Wayne would hide under the teacher's table, when she greets us they will jump out and shout "goal!" then the rest of the class starts to sing "ole ole" but it totally failed. as soon as they jumped out from under the table nobody sang the song lol.

for mrs ismail we wanted to act as if there was an earthquake, we were supposed to shout "earthquake earthquake" then hide under the table. but it failed lol cause we all started dragging out chairs at the same time and mrs ismail knew something was going on. so we decided to do it again at the end of lesson. And it succeeded lol. then Bing Xian did something epic. He said "class greet MRS NAIR" and we went "thank you and good bye MRS NAIR" rofl!

bio extra lesson after school... When mrs chan came in and greeted us we started singing "happy birthday", she didnt know it was a joke and started getting all jumpy saying "its not my birthday! its not my birthday" i didn't know teachers could be so dumb lol :P

Training after school... Played around with the charlies and their drill mutual. One of my cadets was epic at that. made us all laugh!

then one of them started to guailan me... and well that set off our triggers... all hell broke loose after that lol... screaming and scolding seeeion... then we did some posting stuff with them, making them fall in according to what post they wanted and stuff...

discussed postings with the TOs/CLTs after training... damn bloody pekchek i tell you... people disagree with then disagree with that... in the end also aiya... i pekchek until never pay much attention to what was happening... >.<

when i went out of school i realised i forgot my shoe bag... went back to get it... as i was walking out of school it started to rain... the charlies started running under the HDB block... one of then stopped to take out his umbrella, then realised he kenna bang seh and shouted "ehh bang seh why never wait for me" epic funny lol...

since i was so pekchek i couldn't be bothered to run... i simply put my file over my head and continued walking...

decisions... decisions... decisions...

decisions... decisions... decisions... i absolutely hate making them...

i decided that i wold do it... but then again i'm afraid of the results... so then i need to decide if it is better off that i don't do it at all...

why must things always be so difficult...

why can't things just be plain, simple and easy to do... >.<...

so it begins...

and so the countdown begins... 15 days to ROD...

to the charlies,

i doubt that you guys are reading this, but i'm sorry for shouting at you guys today... i may have gone a bit overboard but you guys must understand that it was necessary...

my breaking point is relatively high and i can tolerate most things... but don't cross the line...

*sigh*...

time passes so fast...

in a blink of an eye its 17 days to my ROD...

these 12 months of being an NCO seemed like only a few months... half a year at max...

and just round the corner i will be sitting for my O levels...

as to weather i will be going for COC at the end of the year and come back as a CLT, i dont know... Maybe, maybe not... we'll see what happens...

i shall start crafting my "goodbye speech" for the charlies...

@#$%!

i wont waste my time typing out a long post about today.

i will just say this. "mdm tong is a smely mother fucker."

this concludes my post. bye.

zzz...

i'm loosing confidence... maybe its for the best that i don't do it at all...

xian...

i can wear my Unit T to lan, arcade and all the funny funny places where school shirts are not allowed...

today i went to K-Pool for the 1st time, and i was wearing my Unit T.

guess what?

i. got. kicked. out.

how pro is what?

i are pro.

as the post title says. i are pro. chinese oral today. teacher was liu zheng bo... >.< he mark strict like some doggy...

1. i went to the chair and sat down.
2. looked at the passage, couldnt a heck load of words.
3. gave up and started looking into space.
4. went to liu zheng bo.
5. started reading.
6. read 1st paragraph he ask me stop.
7. conversation, some topic on respect or discipline or w/e cant be bothered to remember.
8. i said "urrmmmmmmm" for 10 secs then started crapping some stuff.
9. i figured i said like 9 sentences and he asked me to stop.

my oral took a total of 3 mins to complete. cool much?

and ohh yea! did i add, 3 mins is my new record. the previous was like 5 mins or so.

zzz...

26 days... and we will see the results...

i'm a space bound rocketship and your hearts the moon,
and i'm aiming right at you,
250 thousand miles on a clear night,
and i'm right at you...

argh...

i swear next time when i think of something i will write it down... i keep forgetting what i need to do, or i remember what i need to do but cant remember what i wanted to write or where i was supposed to get the damn thing from...

i wanted to use some song lyrics but out of a sudden i cant remember the damn song... and i cant remember the lyrics also...

facepalm... again...

argh... i decided to try to read it again... well i read the 1st like 2 or 3 months worth... then decided to just read the more interesting ones... but i must admit i still skipped alot... >.<...

facepalm...

when i say i will do something, i will make sure i do it... its just a matter of when...

so a few weeks back i said i would read everything there... (not gonna say what it is but you can guess i think, maybe if your smart you'll get it right)

so just now i went there and started reading it...

but wth... it dates back from 4 years ago... thats alot of stuff to go through... >.< and yea i got bored reading it...

zzz... dont blame me! at least i tried!!!

i are pro.

i am just pro. supposed to have tuition today... but i didnt feel like going... so guess what i did? i pulled people out to go lan with me. :P

xian...

a chance is still a chance... no matter how small it may be...

sore throat...

zzz... i am having a sore throat these few days... but today i opened the fridge and saw a bar of chocolate... i couldnt resists the temptation and ate the whole thing... all 125 grams of it... and now my throat srsly just hurts like hell... >.<...

hiax...

its that small chance that keeps me hanging on...

yay!

ok. blog links are fixed. I just linked all those i know, including those who's blogs are dead... lazy to make mu own code to i used blogger's :P

bored...

since i'm bored and got nothing to do... i think i'll just fix the blog links... Maybe do it with my own code if i am really bored...

removed links

i removed the links to other people's blogs cause i found that many of them were broken / or the blogs were deleted. and i am very lazy to go fix them... so i removed the blog lists...

this doesnt mean im anti-social!!! im sorry that i removed them... being me, i am simply just too lazy... and want to take the easy way out...

holy shitz...

i got my report book back yesterday, wanna guess my L1R5? Nvm, i tell you, 45. pro rite?

i swear after ROD imma be a freaking nerd and study everyday.

family today today... had to do saikang... took 2 1st buses to school... and still reached school at 6.20am...

misses PDS comp... heard lots of epic stuff happened...

who does all the epic stuff happen when im not there... >.<

and when im there... nothing interesting happens... >.<

hiax...

zzz...

haiz... i want to express my feelings... and not keep them bottled up... but every damn time i log on to blogger and want to start typing... i just cant write anything... but when i lie on my bed thinking... i can think of all sorts of stuff...

i are pro.

k so last few days i kept saying that i would be a good boy today and attend my 1st AP of the year.

well that was true to a certain extend. i attended AP for 3 mins.

anyway i WAS suppose to have tuition from 6pm to 9pm. but the pro me only attended 1.5 hrs of it. (dont ask me how)

stupid is stupid.

yesterday i went on to youtube cause i wanted to listen to songs. so i wanted to listen to "sex on the radio" by Good Charlotte. but guess what? i couldnt load the video cause the parental settings my bastard of a father put on my comp listed it as PORN.

fail much?

bloody idiot... srsly...

ok, so last thursday, some idiot knicked my filed off the canteen bench... i was wondering who the hell would want to steal my file... its not like i keep my cash inside it... and my notes arnt the type of godly notes that you read and get full marks for your test... in fact my notes are the last on earth you want to steal... their half blank for gods sakes...

so today i want to find ivan spencer wong to see if anybody found my file and passed it to him. and guess what, somebody did... if i find the idiot who TOOK my file and then GAVE it to ivan spencer wong i swear imma kill him/her.

zzz...

argh... i know i've failed... but then again i still want to hear the answer from you in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i just cant stop thinking about you...

for you, i'll do anything... even if it means walking to the end of the universe and back just to accomplish it...

i just wish that you were right here next to me... but i know that wish will never come true... cause the impossible just doesnt happen... its called impossible for a reason....

for gods sakes... i really cant think of how to express myself today... it has taken me half a damned hour just to write this... >.< i've wrote stuff then deleted it and wrote other stuff again countless times...

sigh...

ok, its been some time since i last posted anything here... 1 and a half months if im not wrong... anyway i'll be doing some updates about my life... they wont be in any particular order...

well some idiot stole my file the other day... i left it at the canteen bench outside air room... together with my bag... who the hell would want to steal my file? its not like the notes i do are godly or anything... srsly... what the hell man...

Well ive been skipping AP and remedial... up to date ive only attended 2 maths and 2 english remedials... and none out of the 4 AP sessions...

ive been staying back almost everyday after school to play with the rifles and do PDS till like 7.30 almost eveyday... then walking with the charlies to the bustop at AMK Hub then taking the bus back with 2 of them.

Well ROD is in 2 months time... plus, minus a bit... gonna be real sad when i ROD lol... dont know where i will go after school everyday...

up to date... i've failed every damned test except 1... FYI im a PURE bio student, and i passsed my 1st bio test in 2 years by 2 marks.

i swear im gonna study hard after ROD... i cant screw up my own future...

if you know me well, you'll know that im not the kind of person that gives up easily... i usually say i want to do something, try to do it, fail and get all pissed off and say i dont want to do it anymore. but a few days later i try it again, most of the time i succeed, but there are instances where i fail...

and now, i think this is a time where i fail... we'll ive been trying some stuff, what it is i will not say... but some of you may know... well it was going fine... until i did something which i didn't think through properly before i did it... and now its all screwed up... i want to try again... but i'm scared that by doing so it will just aggravate the situation...

well, i guess it was a longshot from the start... and they are called longshots for a reason... well i still want to hear your reply in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i guess its better to be able to say that i tried and failed rather than i never tried and regret it now...

i really don't want to give up... but it looks like the odds are not in my favor... i guess when life puts an obstacle in front of you sometimes, it wants you to take a different path... and not to find a way to overcome the obstacle...

As years go by,
I'll race the clock with you.

When you make mistakes,
I'll take the fall for you.

So let me light up the skies,
cause it was you i waited for.

You'll always be in my heart,
Until the end of time.

I'm sorry that i failed you... Please forgive me... But don't forget me... For i won't forget you...

Zzz...

comments my part wrote about me:

-can smile more
-can bond more
-very funny
-can say funnier jokes. sometimes a bit kuku
-quite nice, can bond with us, dont keep swearing
-always scold "dude". quite nice
-SMILE!!!
-guided us well, can be more cheerful during trng
-face abit funny, childish but fun
-strict/fierce
-strict at times, interactive. smile more
-funny at times. emo... sentimental...
-try to :)


so basically i need to:

-smile more.
-bond more? (some say can bond some say need bond more... -confusing leh)
-stop swearing
-be more cheerful during trngs
-be more interactive (some say interactive some say never talk enough... wth... >.<)
-be less fierce? O_o

srsly... i swear i dont say "dude"...
emo and sentimental << wth? who write de >.< i where got emo?!

screwed up day...

today had bio test... i totally did not study for it... i doulbt i will actually pass it... the question on what bacteria was used to culture insulin in labs, i wrote Lactobascillius idk where the heck i actually came up with that word O_o and i have absolutely no idea what is a trachea O_o

anyway today was the 1st day without weizhe. i swear it was a freaking wierd feeling O_o usually i will go out of the air room and talk to the Charlies before they start their training. so usually weizhe will be there and we will start talking crap. but today there was no weizhe, and he not taking part in the conversation was just, well, wierd...

aero training today was damn xian... but the comments that they wrote about us at the end of the training was entertaining O_o i really dont get it how i am very serious during aero trainings O_o cause personally i find myself quite slack O_o and come on srsly... i dont smile enough? and how am i fierce during aero? i dont even scold O_o anyway the comments were really entertaining :P

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k ive decided to start another 2 campaigns...

1st campaign: swear less. i know that to stop swearing completely is an impossible task for me, i am going to swear less. in view of this, i have removed the 2 obscene pictures from my blog.

2nd campaign: i dont wanna say what this one is about. but you guys might find out soon enough. O_o

im sorry...

to wei zhe,
i'm sorry for not being able to send you off to the airport at the last moment... it is not because i dont want to, it is because i am not allowed to... i will admit that im not in very good terms with my parents and they were being dogs again today... i will also admit that as i am typing this i am indeed crying, i just regret that you are not able to see it before you leave...

staying in a big house is good... but there are stuff that you dont actually realise... having a big house means having alot of money... alot of money means that your parents work long hours and you hardly get to see them... which means that you will not be anywhere near close to your parents... i will admit that on average, i speak less that 5 words to them each day... asking for permission to go for or to do something is like... i dont know how to explain this but asking them for their permission is a very difficult task... firstly cause i hardly see them... secondly they dont really know me very well and that means that they dont really trust me...

to prove this point, i shall give you an example... today i sms-ed my parents that i wanted to go send weizhe off at the airport. they didnt believe me... my mom actually send a text to miss chew asking her if any of my classmates were migrating... now i know the reason how miss chew know when she asked me who was the friend migrating today in class... miss chew replied that she didnt know and would ask me, but never got back to my parents. (im not saying its her fault in anyway) my mom send me this "i have asked miss chew about your classmate (i never said it was a classmate) and this is her reply. ( i do not know of anybody in the class who is migrating. it may be a friend of his or from another class or level.) if you are not telling the truth, don't got to the airport later on."

they also forced me to go home, which is the reason why i am not at the airport now but at home typing this... 1st thing i stepped in the house they started screaming at me about telling lies and stuff like that... i will tell you, they are total fucking assholes... (i am trying to swear less on my blog posts but this is one of the special exceptions...) usually i just let them rant and rave at me, cause i know that what ever that i have to say to defend myself the won't believe me... but no, today was different... i could'nt take it any more and i argued back... i was so angry that i let a few profanities slip out... i just hope that they dont ban me from comp for another 3 months... cause that was what happened when i sweared the F word at my father the last time...

to be honest... i would rather live in a normal HDB flat with parents that actually trust me... and not rant and rave at me when they do not know the truth... sometimes i even wonder why i was born into this family and wish that i had actually been born into another better family...

weizhe, i have said this many times to you before but i will say it again... i have really enjoyed my time with you and wish that i had more time to stuff with you and the charlies... i wish you all the best for your future (again) and please stay in contact with us... i will never forget you and i hope that you will always remember us... farewell...

i will post the pictures and videos i took this afternoon tomorrow when i get home... provided my SD card does not screw up...

bai bai...

ok so im pretty much speachless atm... im not one who is good with words... yet alone farewells... usually its just a goodbye handshake and i never see the person again... but i swear this is gonna be different. i planned to cry on rod. but since you wont have a chance to see that. i will do it for you tomorrow... on the condition that somebody else agrees to do it to. anyway so ive heard that your flight has been re-scheduled to tuesday at 9.30am... sadly this means that we cant send you off... i actually planned to get you a farewell gift... but i may not be able to do so now as the date change was very last minute... but we'll see what i can rush out... worst come to worst i treat you to something tomorrow... im really at a lost for words now... all i can say is that trainings from now on will never be the same again without you there... no more bloody bugger that pins all his badges but forgets his nametag... no more idiot that starts shaking his head when he makes a mistake when giving commands... i seriously want to say more, but then again i seriously cannot think of any more to say... so i will just abruptly end it here... once again... farewell and best of luck in all you do... dont forget us... and always remember... we will never forget you...

your platoon mates actually suggested to me that we pon school on tuesday to send you off at the airport... i hope you realise that you mean a great deal to them... seeing how they cried at the playground today suprised me... cause even the guys cried... i admit, i actually did shed a few tears at a point of time...

for the rest of the charlies... i will do an individual dedication for all of you guys when i ROD... so in the mean time, wait patiently...

so now you're gone...

this post is dedicated to one of my cadets... in 3 days time he will be migrating to Perth, Australia and we will most probably never get to see him again...

To "him":
dont know if i should be sad and cry, or to be angry and slap you... i know you cant see this... but with the deepest sincerity from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all the best in your future endeavors...

when you need cheering up, just think of all the shit you went through with all of us...

most importantly, don't you ever forget us...

i find it very unfair that you have gone through 3 years of shit with us and have to leave now... just a mere 3 months before you guys take over... and by jove are you a big case of wasted talent...

3 months to your most enjoyable year in NCC and you are going to miss it...

you have been an exceptional cadet with lots of leadership qualities... and i have really had a good time taking you... be it during training or just talking crap...

i wish you all the best in the years to come, and please... go get a facebook account so that all of us can keep in touch with you... you leaving is sad enough for us, not being able to be in touch is going to be much worst...

Sincerely,
sgt kianwai

argh...

so my weekend was totally boring... had to wake up early on sat cause i had 3 hrs of tuition... sucks... after tuition came home and slept... sunday was boring also... woke up, played comp, went to the library, came home and slept again.

was very bored to i ask on fb to see who wanted to go for a bike ride. ended up going with snr choon kian. stepped into the shower when i came home after my ride... leg felt pain as hell... realised that i scrapped him leg on my METAL bike pedals somewhere along the trip and didnt know...

got physics test tomorrow... and guess what? my physics textbook is happily lying under my table in school... kianwai.gg-no-re.com.org >.<...

other random updates

O lvls are this year... i know i need to study but i just cant get myself to study... xian man >.< teachers keep saying 10 months of hard work will guarantee you 65 years of payouts...

again im in this fked up state... (again) and no! for those who know who the other person is, it isnt about her this time!

decisions, decisions, decisions... yes? or no? if yes, there is another question... do it? or dont do it... if do it, do it now? or wait till later? >.< argh... cant make up my mind... and if do it, i dont have the guts to! so how can i do it?! >.< demoralizing ttc...

so i'll end off this update with something...

life offers many difficulties in exchange for a few moments of happiness...
these moments are worth a life time...

13th jan, saimen's bday :P

so saimen's bday was coming up. i decided to plan a bash for him. so i went to get stuff for his bash on monday. bought choc sauce, sparkling wine and starch flour (total cost 13 bucks btw) then i went home and put it in the cupboard... went for tuition after that... halfway during tuition my mother called me... made an excuse saying i needed to toilet to answer the call.

Mother: did you buy a bottle of chocolate sauce?
Me: yes. why?
Mother: your sister just drank it.

in my head i was like shiiiiiiit >.< that bottle of choc sauce cost $5.30 if i remember correctly... so after tuition i went to get a bottle of soya sauce to replace it...

on tuesday after school, i went home and was feeling hungry... raided the fridge for something to eat and guess what i found? my bottle of chocolate sauce, half empty >.< buried at the back of the fridge... probably my sis's ingenious plan to hide it from me...

decided to blash him on thurs. so we waited until the charlie's fs training was over. but LC went to scold them so we wernt in the mood to actually do anything... but wth, while they were practicing pds outside the field after training, some random fellas started chasing saimen and started to tau-pok him O_o so i ran into the air room and took the stuff out.

sherrill was taking the soya sauce and i keep shouting at her "dont pour on me! dont pour on me!" in the end she poured it on me also >.< saw dominic drinking the choc sauce, snatched the bottle from him and poured it over his head :P saimen was very pityful with all the stuff over him, but i wasnt satisfied :P i rubbed the leftover choc sauce and starch flour into his hair :P

saimen decided not to change before going home. so he walked home in his dirty tshirt and pants :P

wanted to give him his present (a bottle of cologne) after his bash but i forgot to bring it >.< so i gave it to him on friday instead :P

Well saimen i hope you had fun :P cause that cost me 15 bucks! but well, i can tell you this. those were the best 15 bucks of my life :D

cca orientation

ok had cca orientation on the 1st saturday of january (cant remember what date that is and cant be bothered to find out) ok heres the stupid thing... Leslie's plans for orientation all failed... they were all turned down by the clts/teachers... day b4 orientation leslie came 2 school early to practice taxing in the parade square... tan song hau saw him and said that he couldnt do that... sucks to be him... so basically 1 plan down... all out effort to decorate the plane wasted...

so i got to wear a fake staff sergeant rank for orientation :P pretty cool really :P whole of part C department having ssg rank :D well orientation wasnt that bad. After orientation went 2 market to eat. then went back to school where we had a chat with the sirs about crap stuff :P had a chat with my part also bout some things.

the pds people played with the sparkling wine sir junli bought to celebrate. feroz found a left over bottle of china coke from CUG council and poured it all over weizhe lol!

holidays

ok so my holidays were pretty boring... was going back 2 school everyday for aero stuff. epic though, had no tuition during the hols so i was very happy... tuition is a dread for me... during the hols i ran out of games to play... so anybody wanna recomend me some? no maple and shitz like that... ohhhh yea... i am happy to say that i did not touch a single book or do a single piece of homework during the holidays. except during conquer O that is... dreaded going back to school... why does the holidays past so fast... my 2 and a half months holidays felt like only a week or 2... >.< O lvls this year... i know i need to study, but i just cant get myself to study...

updates

ok, its been quite a long time since i've posted anything here... close to a month actually. and im very bored today so i'm gonna do an update.

Things to update
1. holidays
2. cca orientation
3. saimen's bday
4. some other crap