haiz...

i've decided... i'm doing it tonight... then, i'm letting go for good...

Aussie Idiot...

So, the aussie idiot has returned on a visit trip... he came to school today and wth his hair is so long and he has grown so tall O.O well he got raped in the air room :P

Bored...

I'm bored to a point that i've began to watch anime... wth right... unbelievable you say? well that just illustrates the fact of how bored i am... but shit i did study for like 6 hrs today also...

Watching Bleach... Currently at episode 13...

I wish I were like the rain...

Sometimes i wish i could be like the rain...
If i were, then would i have a way to connect our two hearts together?
The way the rain connects with the earth and the sky...
Even thought the two never touch...
With each day that passes, I think that I've come to understand you at least a little bit more...

1 week...

its been exactly 1 week since ROD... and i'm still damn sad... my phone no longer rings cause no more messages are pass down... i no longer see my platoon mates in the afternoon and talk crap or do stupid stuff with them...

since ROD i vowed not to touch the rifles again... on thursday some idiots boxed me in, pryed open my fingers and stuffed a rifle in my hand... THANKS A LOT AR GUYS! so i was like wtf since i touch already might as well do some stuff...

sigh...

well its been exactly 24 hours since ROD and already i feel like theres somethings missing from my life... my cca... my platoon mates... my part... and of course Brother...

ROD...

ROD parade today... im both sad and happy... im happy that i can finally focus on my studies, but im sad as i will miss both my platoon mates and the charlies...

To the NCOs '10-'11 thank you all for those cards that you guys have made for me. i really appreciate them...

To the Charlies, thank you for that Oreo Pillow and the photo :P i have really enjoyed taking you all and i wish you guys all the best for your NCO life... If you guys did not get the post you guys were aiming for, remember this, don't be sad, cause EVERYBODY has a part to play in leading the unit.

To Junli, thank you for being such a wonderful Part Sergeant to us in Sec 1 and also for being such a good CLT. In my opinion, you are the best CLT we have ever had. Once again thank you so much. I will miss you Brother! Don't forget the NCOs of '10-'11!

I also apologise if the dedication are not very accurate as i actually started writing them about 2 weeks before today... cause i find it really hard to write stuff about people...

Last Salute...

Dear Charlies '10,'11

Well, my term as an NCO has come to an end, and I must say that this one year has been the best year of my life, many funny, interesting and epic things have happened.

I must say that it has been an absolute honor to have been your APS for this past year. I have had a really fun and enjoyable time with you guys. You all say that I am very fierce as i always scold you guys during trainings, but I am actually a very friendly person. Don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me, I don't kill for gods sake :P

I must also admit that during this one year being with you guys has changed me alot. If you don't believe it, ask anybody from my batch and they will tell you the same thing.

I am sure that you guys are very happy to be taking over the unit as NCOs. Promise that you will do us proud and take the unit to greater heights.

To end off, I shall give you guys some words of advice. Treasure your time as an NCO and make full use of it, cause this one year will come to and end in a blink of an eye.

And next time you see us don't be afraid to say Hi! I will always be willing to hear what ever problems you guys have, so don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me on msn :P

I hope that you guys will not forget us as we will never forget you all. Thanks for all the fun and laughter that you guys have brought into my life.

I wish you guys all the best in the years to come.

-Kianwai

I've also wrote something for each of you :P

Bendy: Fun, interactive and jumpy. But can be abit sotong at times :P knows when to have fun and when to be serious.

Michelle: The "aunty" of the part. Very loud and booming voice :p Can also interact very well, easy to communicate with.

Hui Qi: The "silent killer" of the part. I still can't forget the incident of you staring during PDS comp :P Try to talk more. And louder also!

Sherrill: Fun, Interactive and jumpy. ^^ << Likes to use the cute face. But doesn't realise she isn't cute at all. Just jooooking :P

Brendan: We can all see that you have changed alot. Keep it up, but there is still room for improvement. And i still can't figure out why you like the word "mystifying" so much, after all, whats so fascinating about that word?

Andrew: Likes to go fly kite :P You need to interact a bit more, share your problem... Don't keep them bottled up till its too late...

Dominic: Joker the part. But lean when to joke and when to be serious. Stay the joker you are and continue to entertain your part :P

Jia Sheng: Don't be so blur :p We can see the effort you are putting in, but there is still room for more :P

Bing Qian: Biggest sotong of the part and biggest i have ever seen... Stop being so blur!!!

Hao Ze: PT enthusiast, but don't kill your man! You need to speak clearly. Slow down your words also, your not rushing for time.

Shawn: You need to learn when to say what things... Don't go off and say stuff about people if they are better than you at it...

Deming: Sotong no.2 You need to have a faster reaction time. And stop the neck bending and eye rolling!

Xuan Zhao: Finally taking over as the "Unit's Tallest Man" :P You need to stop being so lazy...

Hassanul: I hope after taking over as a NCO you will stop skipping trainings... You need to put in more effort. Learn to be serious when you need to be.

Sean: Another joker of the part who cant stop laughing. With Saimen gone, who you gonna laugh at?

Bryan: Sometimes i pity you... Even if somebody doesn't come, during sizing up you are still the 1st from the left...

Wei Zhe: You bloody bastard, make out lives so damn bloody difficult... But still it has been very fun and enjoyable taking you for that 9 or so months before you left... Don't come back with an aussie accent!

Last salute...

Dear NCOs '10,'11

Well, our four years in NCC Air has finally come to end, and I'm sure that you guys have enjoyed it as much as I have.

I don't really know what to say, but that you all for making these four years in NCC so fun and enjoyable.

Special thanks to the members of GLSKF for doing all those epic and non-sensical stuff to make all of us laugh, and also for all those funny jokes too.

Lets try to stay in touch for as long as possible yeah? No treating each other as strangers after ROD :P

Best Wishes,
Kianwai

Hey i almost forgot, i've wrote something for each of you guys also :P

Luo Cheng: Hi Mum! You have been a very good mother to us in this past year :P But i still remember the times in Sec 2 where i thought you were very fierce and violent :P keep wacking me for skipping trainings lol :P

Shi Xian: To my MANLY Dad! You've been very good to us too :P You can be very sotong at times and I had a lot of fun teasing you :p

Eddie: You are still as childish and as cute as ever lol. Still remember the times I used to bully you. I wonder if your butt is still as jelly as it used to be :P

Kian Sam Who knew you would be such a bloody fierce NCO :P But still you know when to be fierce and when to joke around. I'm writing this ahead of time, so good luck with "you know what" :P

Wen Shei: aka Smelly Old Man, the silent killer of our part. Always keeps quite, but when he speaks he says stuff that totally just pwns :P

Satviender: Very noisy and loud :P I'll always remember how we argue about all those small and useless stuff...

Jeremy: Likes to slack off in the middle of trainings lol. I like your style! But its been fun being around you during aero :P

Jun Xiang: All i see you do is take photos and print them :P Why never take photo of me?! Ohh yea, did i mention your another silent killer :P

Bonn: To be honest, you were one of the last people I thought I'll actually be good friends with, cause of the many differences between us. Me being in aero, you being in PDS, and also cause of our different streams... But hey! Look at us now :P Thanks for teaching me all those PDS drills, and always lending me your phone also :P Gonna miss you after ROD...

Part C Department '10,'11
Rowena: We've been through lots of ups and downs this year together with the charlies. We may not always agree on everything but we still pulled through some how. I admit that sometimes you are a bit guailan, to prevent anything from happening I usually just walk away and dissapear to the air room or some other place. Thats why you don't see me sometimes... I still like making fun of you cause you can't rest your hand on my shoulder :P (not that i want you to) Cause if not got somebody come arrest me and put me in jail :p

Saimen: We share alot of things in common, initially we didn't like the post given to us, but now both of us have no regrets about it :P The request you asked me, I've decided to follow through with it... I'll forget the grudges... I'll miss you after ROD man... Cause we are of different streams and we don't really see each other besides in the air room... You need to learn to share your problems with people, don't keep your feelings bottled up. I'm always there and willing to listen if you want to talk about stuff :P

Members of GLSKF

Gabriel: The Dua Tao of the group. At first i wondered why you were the head, but then you started to show your true colours. Pwning everybody along the way and always finding reasons to slack. Epicly lazy fella, always leaves his stuff in the air room for long periods :P

Leslie: Hey, these 4 years with you have been really fun and enjoyable. Being in aero, trainings or just slacking around. I know i make fun of you, but i don't mean it :P Stay the joker that you are :P

Seow Meng: I have alot of stuff to say about you, but I just can't think of any right now. But you are the most guailan fella i have ever seen. Thanks for entertaining us with all your funny jokes and all those random shit. I'll always remember how you got stuck on the fence and got lolpwned by ants :p Stay the joker you are :p

Feroz: Hey Blackie! Its been an absolute pleasure to have you around in the past 4 years. I know i always joke about you, but I don't mean it :P The only thing i regret is being one of the reasons why you swear so much now... Gonna miss all the fun times we had together... I'm still gonna hug you every time i see you, don't worry about that!

falling stars...

when you forget me
and you don't remember my name
not even a memory
somewhere in the back of your brain
i won't be offended
cus i always knew that the day would come and
i'm not enough to make you stay

you tell me it's not possible
no way that we could break
but nothing is illogical
believe me
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars cause
i'll never get over you
cause you are so
beautiful
yeah

the world is turning
and time keeps on lingering on
the sun will be burning
eventually you will be gone
i'll always love you

believe it or not
baby thats not enough to,
not enough to stop these

falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you cause
you are so
beautiful
yeah

when its all said and done
i'll be just a spec in a galaxy
floating further away by gravity

you tell me its impossible
no way that we can break...
like falling stars....
like crashing cars
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up just like
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you
cause you are
so
beautiful

you are so beautiful
yeah

2 days...

2 more days left to ROD...

Bunking at Smeng's house Friday night :P

Practiced performance like crazy to day...

Hope i don't screw up on saturday...

4 days...

4 more days to ROD... happy but sad at the same time...

6 days...

its 6 days to ROD... parents say they are gonna come and watch... but i don't want them to... >.< screw them... kaobei dogs...

7 days...

ROD is exactly 1 week away...last 7 days as an NCO...

Had a long talk with Sir Junli yesterday... after hearing all that stuff, i changed my mind about coming back as a CLT... At most i'll come back as a senior to help...

I got raped yesterday... Got dumped in the canteen basin and spammed with water and soap... but me being a smart ass, brought an extra set of clothes cause i knew i was gonna get raped sometime this week or the next :P

sorry...

i'm sorry that i failed you...
its just that things did not turn out like how i predicted they would...
i doubt you are reading this, but i am really sorry...
i'm just afraid of the outcome...

zzz...

i've made my decision... i will not do it... i've been thinking and i think its better off that i hold back... cause the consequences will not be very good...

this one of the very few times i am actually giving up on something that i really want to do or achieve...

10 days...

the countdown as started... 10 days till ROD... some part of me is happy... but some other part of me is sad...

Whats to come...

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you are the one...

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know

Only One...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't pick up the pieces
I've thrown my words all around
But I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
I'm on the verge of giving up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't get up when you're gone

Something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one...

zzz...

they say people change when given responsibility...
will you change for the better?
or take a turn for a worst...

well i can only wait and see... and hope that i have made the right choice...

Friday 1st April

So yesterday was april fool's day :P

we decided to prank miss chew, miss ng and mrs ismail.

as for the prank on miss chew i don't know how it went cause being friday i need to fall in. the plan was to message her saying that we had high fever and would not be attending school that day.

for miss ng, we decided that Samuel and Wayne would hide under the teacher's table, when she greets us they will jump out and shout "goal!" then the rest of the class starts to sing "ole ole" but it totally failed. as soon as they jumped out from under the table nobody sang the song lol.

for mrs ismail we wanted to act as if there was an earthquake, we were supposed to shout "earthquake earthquake" then hide under the table. but it failed lol cause we all started dragging out chairs at the same time and mrs ismail knew something was going on. so we decided to do it again at the end of lesson. And it succeeded lol. then Bing Xian did something epic. He said "class greet MRS NAIR" and we went "thank you and good bye MRS NAIR" rofl!

bio extra lesson after school... When mrs chan came in and greeted us we started singing "happy birthday", she didnt know it was a joke and started getting all jumpy saying "its not my birthday! its not my birthday" i didn't know teachers could be so dumb lol :P

Training after school... Played around with the charlies and their drill mutual. One of my cadets was epic at that. made us all laugh!

then one of them started to guailan me... and well that set off our triggers... all hell broke loose after that lol... screaming and scolding seeeion... then we did some posting stuff with them, making them fall in according to what post they wanted and stuff...

discussed postings with the TOs/CLTs after training... damn bloody pekchek i tell you... people disagree with then disagree with that... in the end also aiya... i pekchek until never pay much attention to what was happening... >.<

when i went out of school i realised i forgot my shoe bag... went back to get it... as i was walking out of school it started to rain... the charlies started running under the HDB block... one of then stopped to take out his umbrella, then realised he kenna bang seh and shouted "ehh bang seh why never wait for me" epic funny lol...

since i was so pekchek i couldn't be bothered to run... i simply put my file over my head and continued walking...

decisions... decisions... decisions...

decisions... decisions... decisions... i absolutely hate making them...

i decided that i wold do it... but then again i'm afraid of the results... so then i need to decide if it is better off that i don't do it at all...

why must things always be so difficult...

why can't things just be plain, simple and easy to do... >.<...

so it begins...

and so the countdown begins... 15 days to ROD...

to the charlies,

i doubt that you guys are reading this, but i'm sorry for shouting at you guys today... i may have gone a bit overboard but you guys must understand that it was necessary...

my breaking point is relatively high and i can tolerate most things... but don't cross the line...