im sorry...

to wei zhe,
i'm sorry for not being able to send you off to the airport at the last moment... it is not because i dont want to, it is because i am not allowed to... i will admit that im not in very good terms with my parents and they were being dogs again today... i will also admit that as i am typing this i am indeed crying, i just regret that you are not able to see it before you leave...

staying in a big house is good... but there are stuff that you dont actually realise... having a big house means having alot of money... alot of money means that your parents work long hours and you hardly get to see them... which means that you will not be anywhere near close to your parents... i will admit that on average, i speak less that 5 words to them each day... asking for permission to go for or to do something is like... i dont know how to explain this but asking them for their permission is a very difficult task... firstly cause i hardly see them... secondly they dont really know me very well and that means that they dont really trust me...

to prove this point, i shall give you an example... today i sms-ed my parents that i wanted to go send weizhe off at the airport. they didnt believe me... my mom actually send a text to miss chew asking her if any of my classmates were migrating... now i know the reason how miss chew know when she asked me who was the friend migrating today in class... miss chew replied that she didnt know and would ask me, but never got back to my parents. (im not saying its her fault in anyway) my mom send me this "i have asked miss chew about your classmate (i never said it was a classmate) and this is her reply. ( i do not know of anybody in the class who is migrating. it may be a friend of his or from another class or level.) if you are not telling the truth, don't got to the airport later on."

they also forced me to go home, which is the reason why i am not at the airport now but at home typing this... 1st thing i stepped in the house they started screaming at me about telling lies and stuff like that... i will tell you, they are total fucking assholes... (i am trying to swear less on my blog posts but this is one of the special exceptions...) usually i just let them rant and rave at me, cause i know that what ever that i have to say to defend myself the won't believe me... but no, today was different... i could'nt take it any more and i argued back... i was so angry that i let a few profanities slip out... i just hope that they dont ban me from comp for another 3 months... cause that was what happened when i sweared the F word at my father the last time...

to be honest... i would rather live in a normal HDB flat with parents that actually trust me... and not rant and rave at me when they do not know the truth... sometimes i even wonder why i was born into this family and wish that i had actually been born into another better family...

weizhe, i have said this many times to you before but i will say it again... i have really enjoyed my time with you and wish that i had more time to stuff with you and the charlies... i wish you all the best for your future (again) and please stay in contact with us... i will never forget you and i hope that you will always remember us... farewell...

i will post the pictures and videos i took this afternoon tomorrow when i get home... provided my SD card does not screw up...