Hiax...

Sometime I wonder and ask myself, why did I do it in the first place...
Cause now I really feel crappy and there's nothing that I can actually do about it...

I swear that this is the biggest mistake I've made...
And also the biggest regret of my life...

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine...
So I could go back in time and undo the mistakes that I made...

Thoughts keep running through my mind...
"What should I do now?"
"What were you hinting at?"
"What will happen in the end?"

I swear it's tormenting me...
It's like bell that keeps ringing continuously at the back of my head...
Its irritating...
And it keeps bothering me...
It just won't leave me alone...

Why did I even start something that I know I would never complete...

O.o

Either more people are viewing my blog than i expected, or my blog stats are screwed.

Ok I think my blog stats are screwed... 34 blogviews on a day that I didn't post anything... And an average of 3 or 4 views when I do actually post something...

Looks like Kian Sam is at the top of the list for blogviews followed by some jajas who see my post via MyBlogPost on facebook.

Zzz...

TMD... >.< yesterday I decided that from today onwards I would study in the study room cause studying in my room has resulted In my table being clutted with books and worksheets...

So this morning I moved all the stuff on my table into the study room... Then I went out for lunch. Had a 1 hr nap after I came back.

When I woke up there was some guy in the house. So I asked my mother who it was. And guess what?
The day I decide to study in the study room, my mother has to decide to change the cushions on the chairs in the study room... >.<

Best thing is it's going to take 2 weeks to replace the cushions...

So I had to move nvm everything back into my room... >.< and now my table is even more messy than it was this morning...

Why...

Why can't I stop thinking about you...
Nothing I try works...
I just can't seem to get you out of my head...
I cant seem to forget about you...

I swear this feeling sucks...
This feeling of confusion...
It's eating me from the inside out...

Should I try again?
Or should I just let you go...

I can't figure out what you were hinting at...
I'm afraid my decision isn't the option you were trying to tell me...
In that case what would happen...

It's ironic...
I keep saying to myself I'll try to stay out of your life...
But everytime you go online I can't resist starting a conversation...
Cause I do actually enjoy them...
Cause they are full of crap and nonsense...
Drifting from one stupid subject to another...

These conversations actually make my day...
And cheer me up after I've had a crappy day...

Some part of me hopes you won't be reading this...
But another part of me hopes you will actually read this...

Hiaz... Indecision gets me no where...

Tabidatsu...

Cherry blossoms dance under the chilly spring sky.
You march on, with dreams and hopes upon your shoulders.
I want to send you off as you begin your journey.
I should have done that seriously today.

I placed all my smiles in a bouquet of flowers
that I am sending to you along with a message:

Thank you for laughing with me.
Thank you for crying with me.
Don’t worry, you will be fine.
Just keep going straight in the path you believe in.
I opened my heart only to you
I am telling you my screets and all.

When it gets really, really hard,
You can just give me a call.
You’ll be okay, no matter how far apart we become.
You’ll be okay because I will always be your friend.

Even if you get married
Even if you grow old
No matter how much time passes
You will be my best friend I proud of.

The overflowing fake tears you set free deceived me.
On the other side of the moving window,
Your figure gradually draws further away
As you wave at me.

Thank you for laughing with me.
Thank you for crying with me.
In the times that keep changing
you keep marching on without changing.
Good-bye,
It starts from now on.
Good-bye,
I will always be your friend.
You will be fine,
You are not alone.
You’ll always have a place to go back to,
Right here.

hiax...

Its the day before O Level Chinese exam... and i'm having a fever... sway much? >.< anyway who cares... its only chinese... a subject i'm doomed to fail...

so i'm gonna give it another try... i'm not gonna use swear words online at least... damn, crap, bastard and screw are not counted...

recently somebody told me something very helpful.

You want to jump from step 2 to step 4!
Your missing step 3!

Best thing i've heard in a while man.

I'm not gonna let it go so easily. Gonna work on step 3.

updates...

I know i have not been posting for quite some time... this is cause i've been studying for my MYE... YES! I have been studying... But despite all that i still only passed 2 subjects... >.< is it the way i'm studying? or i'm not studying hard enough? i swear this is the hardest i have ever studied... Didn't do as well as i thought i would... Here i'll give you an example...

"If i fail geography i'll slap myself" *fail* wtf?!
"If i fail physics i'll not play comp for a day" *fail* WTF?!
"If i fail english i'll not play comp for another day and forfeit my cash items" *fail* WTF?!

PTC later on today... I think i'm going to get slaughtered... I figure my L1R5 is about 45... plus minus a bit... >.<

Had some "motivational talk" yesterday... Totally boring... >.< And totally useless in my opinion... Spent the time slacking instead of listening...

Went back to see the Charlies's first training as an NCO last week... Wasn't too bad actually... Just some minor mistakes here and there... Happy to see how good they have become... Keep it up guys! But still, you know what my request of you guys is... Settle it quickly... Or you guys will regret... I've been getting a few request for me to go see the trainings... But you guys have to understand that i need to let go... If u want, I can come... But not that often... Maybe once a month or something like that...

Seems like my holidays aren't going to be holidays at all... Packed full of extra lessons... And guess what? They go through the whole day... 6++ Hours or physics and maths a day... How the hell to tahan... >.<

With all these extra lessons, how the hell am i going to find time to actually study for Prelim 1... Argh... >.<...

epic shitz.

Last paper today... Practical exam... Which I screwed up the Physics part... I know its only MYE, but it feels like O Levels are over... >.< LAN-ed with kianny, shei, leslie, saimen today. Blackshot-ed with brendan, js, andrew, bq, shawn err i think i missing 1 name i cant remember who :P Damn fun time today. Not had to much fun in ages... Last match they sore :P deny me of my MVP!

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...

why...

I hate this feeling... its so damn botherly... i wish it would just go away...

haix...

Flowers for your hair,
Rainbows for your eyes to see,
Your dreams are everywhere,
To carry you away from me,

Ohh there she goes,
So beautiful,
Shes flying home...

Ohh there she goes,
So beautiful,
But she said she don't know who i am...

when words fail...

when words fail to express what you feel, you use pictures...



sometimes i wonder whats on your mind... i hate to see you so sad.. and yet theres nothing i can do to help you... i really wish that there was something i could do to help ease your pain... but you won't share whats bothering you... and that doesnt give me any options...

Can't dream without you...

When you close you're eyes and go to sleep tonight
I'll be right outside you're door
Dreams will come and take you away
Let them bring you back to me

And tomorrow when you wake
I'll be next you
From protection from the day
When the tears fall down you're face like morning dew
I'll be there to put a smile on you're face
And I'll say ...

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

Let you're fire burn bright the world to see
You are the better part of me
When you hold my hand and I'll swear that I believe
I'm living in my wildest dreams
And I see ...

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

Flowers for you're hair
Rainbows for you're eyes to see
You're dreams are everywhere
They'll carry you away from me
Away from me someday

I don't wanna live this life without you
I don't wanna spend the night without you
I don't wanna know what it's like
I can't dream without you

stupid...

mixpod is stupid... srsly... i cant add songs i want to my play list, it keeps saying "video not found" >.<...

ohh well...

it took a much longer time than i expected... 15 means staring at the 1st send screen where u choose contacts... another 20 mins staring at the 2nd send screen... finger hoovering over the *send* button...

well at least it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would...

but as much as possible, i'll try to stay out of your life...

I'm sorry...

haiz...

i've decided... i'm doing it tonight... then, i'm letting go for good...

Aussie Idiot...

So, the aussie idiot has returned on a visit trip... he came to school today and wth his hair is so long and he has grown so tall O.O well he got raped in the air room :P

Bored...

I'm bored to a point that i've began to watch anime... wth right... unbelievable you say? well that just illustrates the fact of how bored i am... but shit i did study for like 6 hrs today also...

Watching Bleach... Currently at episode 13...

I wish I were like the rain...

Sometimes i wish i could be like the rain...
If i were, then would i have a way to connect our two hearts together?
The way the rain connects with the earth and the sky...
Even thought the two never touch...
With each day that passes, I think that I've come to understand you at least a little bit more...

1 week...

its been exactly 1 week since ROD... and i'm still damn sad... my phone no longer rings cause no more messages are pass down... i no longer see my platoon mates in the afternoon and talk crap or do stupid stuff with them...

since ROD i vowed not to touch the rifles again... on thursday some idiots boxed me in, pryed open my fingers and stuffed a rifle in my hand... THANKS A LOT AR GUYS! so i was like wtf since i touch already might as well do some stuff...

sigh...

well its been exactly 24 hours since ROD and already i feel like theres somethings missing from my life... my cca... my platoon mates... my part... and of course Brother...

ROD...

ROD parade today... im both sad and happy... im happy that i can finally focus on my studies, but im sad as i will miss both my platoon mates and the charlies...

To the NCOs '10-'11 thank you all for those cards that you guys have made for me. i really appreciate them...

To the Charlies, thank you for that Oreo Pillow and the photo :P i have really enjoyed taking you all and i wish you guys all the best for your NCO life... If you guys did not get the post you guys were aiming for, remember this, don't be sad, cause EVERYBODY has a part to play in leading the unit.

To Junli, thank you for being such a wonderful Part Sergeant to us in Sec 1 and also for being such a good CLT. In my opinion, you are the best CLT we have ever had. Once again thank you so much. I will miss you Brother! Don't forget the NCOs of '10-'11!

I also apologise if the dedication are not very accurate as i actually started writing them about 2 weeks before today... cause i find it really hard to write stuff about people...

Last Salute...

Dear Charlies '10,'11

Well, my term as an NCO has come to an end, and I must say that this one year has been the best year of my life, many funny, interesting and epic things have happened.

I must say that it has been an absolute honor to have been your APS for this past year. I have had a really fun and enjoyable time with you guys. You all say that I am very fierce as i always scold you guys during trainings, but I am actually a very friendly person. Don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me, I don't kill for gods sake :P

I must also admit that during this one year being with you guys has changed me alot. If you don't believe it, ask anybody from my batch and they will tell you the same thing.

I am sure that you guys are very happy to be taking over the unit as NCOs. Promise that you will do us proud and take the unit to greater heights.

To end off, I shall give you guys some words of advice. Treasure your time as an NCO and make full use of it, cause this one year will come to and end in a blink of an eye.

And next time you see us don't be afraid to say Hi! I will always be willing to hear what ever problems you guys have, so don't be afraid to approach me or talk to me on msn :P

I hope that you guys will not forget us as we will never forget you all. Thanks for all the fun and laughter that you guys have brought into my life.

I wish you guys all the best in the years to come.

-Kianwai

I've also wrote something for each of you :P

Bendy: Fun, interactive and jumpy. But can be abit sotong at times :P knows when to have fun and when to be serious.

Michelle: The "aunty" of the part. Very loud and booming voice :p Can also interact very well, easy to communicate with.

Hui Qi: The "silent killer" of the part. I still can't forget the incident of you staring during PDS comp :P Try to talk more. And louder also!

Sherrill: Fun, Interactive and jumpy. ^^ << Likes to use the cute face. But doesn't realise she isn't cute at all. Just jooooking :P

Brendan: We can all see that you have changed alot. Keep it up, but there is still room for improvement. And i still can't figure out why you like the word "mystifying" so much, after all, whats so fascinating about that word?

Andrew: Likes to go fly kite :P You need to interact a bit more, share your problem... Don't keep them bottled up till its too late...

Dominic: Joker the part. But lean when to joke and when to be serious. Stay the joker you are and continue to entertain your part :P

Jia Sheng: Don't be so blur :p We can see the effort you are putting in, but there is still room for more :P

Bing Qian: Biggest sotong of the part and biggest i have ever seen... Stop being so blur!!!

Hao Ze: PT enthusiast, but don't kill your man! You need to speak clearly. Slow down your words also, your not rushing for time.

Shawn: You need to learn when to say what things... Don't go off and say stuff about people if they are better than you at it...

Deming: Sotong no.2 You need to have a faster reaction time. And stop the neck bending and eye rolling!

Xuan Zhao: Finally taking over as the "Unit's Tallest Man" :P You need to stop being so lazy...

Hassanul: I hope after taking over as a NCO you will stop skipping trainings... You need to put in more effort. Learn to be serious when you need to be.

Sean: Another joker of the part who cant stop laughing. With Saimen gone, who you gonna laugh at?

Bryan: Sometimes i pity you... Even if somebody doesn't come, during sizing up you are still the 1st from the left...

Wei Zhe: You bloody bastard, make out lives so damn bloody difficult... But still it has been very fun and enjoyable taking you for that 9 or so months before you left... Don't come back with an aussie accent!

Last salute...

Dear NCOs '10,'11

Well, our four years in NCC Air has finally come to end, and I'm sure that you guys have enjoyed it as much as I have.

I don't really know what to say, but that you all for making these four years in NCC so fun and enjoyable.

Special thanks to the members of GLSKF for doing all those epic and non-sensical stuff to make all of us laugh, and also for all those funny jokes too.

Lets try to stay in touch for as long as possible yeah? No treating each other as strangers after ROD :P

Best Wishes,
Kianwai

Hey i almost forgot, i've wrote something for each of you guys also :P

Luo Cheng: Hi Mum! You have been a very good mother to us in this past year :P But i still remember the times in Sec 2 where i thought you were very fierce and violent :P keep wacking me for skipping trainings lol :P

Shi Xian: To my MANLY Dad! You've been very good to us too :P You can be very sotong at times and I had a lot of fun teasing you :p

Eddie: You are still as childish and as cute as ever lol. Still remember the times I used to bully you. I wonder if your butt is still as jelly as it used to be :P

Kian Sam Who knew you would be such a bloody fierce NCO :P But still you know when to be fierce and when to joke around. I'm writing this ahead of time, so good luck with "you know what" :P

Wen Shei: aka Smelly Old Man, the silent killer of our part. Always keeps quite, but when he speaks he says stuff that totally just pwns :P

Satviender: Very noisy and loud :P I'll always remember how we argue about all those small and useless stuff...

Jeremy: Likes to slack off in the middle of trainings lol. I like your style! But its been fun being around you during aero :P

Jun Xiang: All i see you do is take photos and print them :P Why never take photo of me?! Ohh yea, did i mention your another silent killer :P

Bonn: To be honest, you were one of the last people I thought I'll actually be good friends with, cause of the many differences between us. Me being in aero, you being in PDS, and also cause of our different streams... But hey! Look at us now :P Thanks for teaching me all those PDS drills, and always lending me your phone also :P Gonna miss you after ROD...

Part C Department '10,'11
Rowena: We've been through lots of ups and downs this year together with the charlies. We may not always agree on everything but we still pulled through some how. I admit that sometimes you are a bit guailan, to prevent anything from happening I usually just walk away and dissapear to the air room or some other place. Thats why you don't see me sometimes... I still like making fun of you cause you can't rest your hand on my shoulder :P (not that i want you to) Cause if not got somebody come arrest me and put me in jail :p

Saimen: We share alot of things in common, initially we didn't like the post given to us, but now both of us have no regrets about it :P The request you asked me, I've decided to follow through with it... I'll forget the grudges... I'll miss you after ROD man... Cause we are of different streams and we don't really see each other besides in the air room... You need to learn to share your problems with people, don't keep your feelings bottled up. I'm always there and willing to listen if you want to talk about stuff :P

Members of GLSKF

Gabriel: The Dua Tao of the group. At first i wondered why you were the head, but then you started to show your true colours. Pwning everybody along the way and always finding reasons to slack. Epicly lazy fella, always leaves his stuff in the air room for long periods :P

Leslie: Hey, these 4 years with you have been really fun and enjoyable. Being in aero, trainings or just slacking around. I know i make fun of you, but i don't mean it :P Stay the joker that you are :P

Seow Meng: I have alot of stuff to say about you, but I just can't think of any right now. But you are the most guailan fella i have ever seen. Thanks for entertaining us with all your funny jokes and all those random shit. I'll always remember how you got stuck on the fence and got lolpwned by ants :p Stay the joker you are :p

Feroz: Hey Blackie! Its been an absolute pleasure to have you around in the past 4 years. I know i always joke about you, but I don't mean it :P The only thing i regret is being one of the reasons why you swear so much now... Gonna miss all the fun times we had together... I'm still gonna hug you every time i see you, don't worry about that!

falling stars...

when you forget me
and you don't remember my name
not even a memory
somewhere in the back of your brain
i won't be offended
cus i always knew that the day would come and
i'm not enough to make you stay

you tell me it's not possible
no way that we could break
but nothing is illogical
believe me
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars cause
i'll never get over you
cause you are so
beautiful
yeah

the world is turning
and time keeps on lingering on
the sun will be burning
eventually you will be gone
i'll always love you

believe it or not
baby thats not enough to,
not enough to stop these

falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up alive
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you cause
you are so
beautiful
yeah

when its all said and done
i'll be just a spec in a galaxy
floating further away by gravity

you tell me its impossible
no way that we can break...
like falling stars....
like crashing cars
like falling stars over your head
we were bound to burn up just like
crashing cars
i'll never get over you
never over you
cause you are
so
beautiful

you are so beautiful
yeah

2 days...

2 more days left to ROD...

Bunking at Smeng's house Friday night :P

Practiced performance like crazy to day...

Hope i don't screw up on saturday...

4 days...

4 more days to ROD... happy but sad at the same time...

6 days...

its 6 days to ROD... parents say they are gonna come and watch... but i don't want them to... >.< screw them... kaobei dogs...

7 days...

ROD is exactly 1 week away...last 7 days as an NCO...

Had a long talk with Sir Junli yesterday... after hearing all that stuff, i changed my mind about coming back as a CLT... At most i'll come back as a senior to help...

I got raped yesterday... Got dumped in the canteen basin and spammed with water and soap... but me being a smart ass, brought an extra set of clothes cause i knew i was gonna get raped sometime this week or the next :P

sorry...

i'm sorry that i failed you...
its just that things did not turn out like how i predicted they would...
i doubt you are reading this, but i am really sorry...
i'm just afraid of the outcome...

zzz...

i've made my decision... i will not do it... i've been thinking and i think its better off that i hold back... cause the consequences will not be very good...

this one of the very few times i am actually giving up on something that i really want to do or achieve...

10 days...

the countdown as started... 10 days till ROD... some part of me is happy... but some other part of me is sad...

Whats to come...

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you are the one...

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know

Only One...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't pick up the pieces
I've thrown my words all around
But I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
I'm on the verge of giving up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't get up when you're gone

Something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one...

zzz...

they say people change when given responsibility...
will you change for the better?
or take a turn for a worst...

well i can only wait and see... and hope that i have made the right choice...

Friday 1st April

So yesterday was april fool's day :P

we decided to prank miss chew, miss ng and mrs ismail.

as for the prank on miss chew i don't know how it went cause being friday i need to fall in. the plan was to message her saying that we had high fever and would not be attending school that day.

for miss ng, we decided that Samuel and Wayne would hide under the teacher's table, when she greets us they will jump out and shout "goal!" then the rest of the class starts to sing "ole ole" but it totally failed. as soon as they jumped out from under the table nobody sang the song lol.

for mrs ismail we wanted to act as if there was an earthquake, we were supposed to shout "earthquake earthquake" then hide under the table. but it failed lol cause we all started dragging out chairs at the same time and mrs ismail knew something was going on. so we decided to do it again at the end of lesson. And it succeeded lol. then Bing Xian did something epic. He said "class greet MRS NAIR" and we went "thank you and good bye MRS NAIR" rofl!

bio extra lesson after school... When mrs chan came in and greeted us we started singing "happy birthday", she didnt know it was a joke and started getting all jumpy saying "its not my birthday! its not my birthday" i didn't know teachers could be so dumb lol :P

Training after school... Played around with the charlies and their drill mutual. One of my cadets was epic at that. made us all laugh!

then one of them started to guailan me... and well that set off our triggers... all hell broke loose after that lol... screaming and scolding seeeion... then we did some posting stuff with them, making them fall in according to what post they wanted and stuff...

discussed postings with the TOs/CLTs after training... damn bloody pekchek i tell you... people disagree with then disagree with that... in the end also aiya... i pekchek until never pay much attention to what was happening... >.<

when i went out of school i realised i forgot my shoe bag... went back to get it... as i was walking out of school it started to rain... the charlies started running under the HDB block... one of then stopped to take out his umbrella, then realised he kenna bang seh and shouted "ehh bang seh why never wait for me" epic funny lol...

since i was so pekchek i couldn't be bothered to run... i simply put my file over my head and continued walking...

decisions... decisions... decisions...

decisions... decisions... decisions... i absolutely hate making them...

i decided that i wold do it... but then again i'm afraid of the results... so then i need to decide if it is better off that i don't do it at all...

why must things always be so difficult...

why can't things just be plain, simple and easy to do... >.<...

so it begins...

and so the countdown begins... 15 days to ROD...

to the charlies,

i doubt that you guys are reading this, but i'm sorry for shouting at you guys today... i may have gone a bit overboard but you guys must understand that it was necessary...

my breaking point is relatively high and i can tolerate most things... but don't cross the line...

*sigh*...

time passes so fast...

in a blink of an eye its 17 days to my ROD...

these 12 months of being an NCO seemed like only a few months... half a year at max...

and just round the corner i will be sitting for my O levels...

as to weather i will be going for COC at the end of the year and come back as a CLT, i dont know... Maybe, maybe not... we'll see what happens...

i shall start crafting my "goodbye speech" for the charlies...

@#$%!

i wont waste my time typing out a long post about today.

i will just say this. "mdm tong is a smely mother fucker."

this concludes my post. bye.

zzz...

i'm loosing confidence... maybe its for the best that i don't do it at all...

xian...

i can wear my Unit T to lan, arcade and all the funny funny places where school shirts are not allowed...

today i went to K-Pool for the 1st time, and i was wearing my Unit T.

guess what?

i. got. kicked. out.

how pro is what?

i are pro.

as the post title says. i are pro. chinese oral today. teacher was liu zheng bo... >.< he mark strict like some doggy...

1. i went to the chair and sat down.
2. looked at the passage, couldnt a heck load of words.
3. gave up and started looking into space.
4. went to liu zheng bo.
5. started reading.
6. read 1st paragraph he ask me stop.
7. conversation, some topic on respect or discipline or w/e cant be bothered to remember.
8. i said "urrmmmmmmm" for 10 secs then started crapping some stuff.
9. i figured i said like 9 sentences and he asked me to stop.

my oral took a total of 3 mins to complete. cool much?

and ohh yea! did i add, 3 mins is my new record. the previous was like 5 mins or so.

zzz...

26 days... and we will see the results...

i'm a space bound rocketship and your hearts the moon,
and i'm aiming right at you,
250 thousand miles on a clear night,
and i'm right at you...

argh...

i swear next time when i think of something i will write it down... i keep forgetting what i need to do, or i remember what i need to do but cant remember what i wanted to write or where i was supposed to get the damn thing from...

i wanted to use some song lyrics but out of a sudden i cant remember the damn song... and i cant remember the lyrics also...

facepalm... again...

argh... i decided to try to read it again... well i read the 1st like 2 or 3 months worth... then decided to just read the more interesting ones... but i must admit i still skipped alot... >.<...

facepalm...

when i say i will do something, i will make sure i do it... its just a matter of when...

so a few weeks back i said i would read everything there... (not gonna say what it is but you can guess i think, maybe if your smart you'll get it right)

so just now i went there and started reading it...

but wth... it dates back from 4 years ago... thats alot of stuff to go through... >.< and yea i got bored reading it...

zzz... dont blame me! at least i tried!!!

i are pro.

i am just pro. supposed to have tuition today... but i didnt feel like going... so guess what i did? i pulled people out to go lan with me. :P

xian...

a chance is still a chance... no matter how small it may be...

sore throat...

zzz... i am having a sore throat these few days... but today i opened the fridge and saw a bar of chocolate... i couldnt resists the temptation and ate the whole thing... all 125 grams of it... and now my throat srsly just hurts like hell... >.<...

hiax...

its that small chance that keeps me hanging on...

yay!

ok. blog links are fixed. I just linked all those i know, including those who's blogs are dead... lazy to make mu own code to i used blogger's :P

bored...

since i'm bored and got nothing to do... i think i'll just fix the blog links... Maybe do it with my own code if i am really bored...

removed links

i removed the links to other people's blogs cause i found that many of them were broken / or the blogs were deleted. and i am very lazy to go fix them... so i removed the blog lists...

this doesnt mean im anti-social!!! im sorry that i removed them... being me, i am simply just too lazy... and want to take the easy way out...

holy shitz...

i got my report book back yesterday, wanna guess my L1R5? Nvm, i tell you, 45. pro rite?

i swear after ROD imma be a freaking nerd and study everyday.

family today today... had to do saikang... took 2 1st buses to school... and still reached school at 6.20am...

misses PDS comp... heard lots of epic stuff happened...

who does all the epic stuff happen when im not there... >.<

and when im there... nothing interesting happens... >.<

hiax...

zzz...

haiz... i want to express my feelings... and not keep them bottled up... but every damn time i log on to blogger and want to start typing... i just cant write anything... but when i lie on my bed thinking... i can think of all sorts of stuff...

i are pro.

k so last few days i kept saying that i would be a good boy today and attend my 1st AP of the year.

well that was true to a certain extend. i attended AP for 3 mins.

anyway i WAS suppose to have tuition from 6pm to 9pm. but the pro me only attended 1.5 hrs of it. (dont ask me how)

stupid is stupid.

yesterday i went on to youtube cause i wanted to listen to songs. so i wanted to listen to "sex on the radio" by Good Charlotte. but guess what? i couldnt load the video cause the parental settings my bastard of a father put on my comp listed it as PORN.

fail much?

bloody idiot... srsly...

ok, so last thursday, some idiot knicked my filed off the canteen bench... i was wondering who the hell would want to steal my file... its not like i keep my cash inside it... and my notes arnt the type of godly notes that you read and get full marks for your test... in fact my notes are the last on earth you want to steal... their half blank for gods sakes...

so today i want to find ivan spencer wong to see if anybody found my file and passed it to him. and guess what, somebody did... if i find the idiot who TOOK my file and then GAVE it to ivan spencer wong i swear imma kill him/her.

zzz...

argh... i know i've failed... but then again i still want to hear the answer from you in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i just cant stop thinking about you...

for you, i'll do anything... even if it means walking to the end of the universe and back just to accomplish it...

i just wish that you were right here next to me... but i know that wish will never come true... cause the impossible just doesnt happen... its called impossible for a reason....

for gods sakes... i really cant think of how to express myself today... it has taken me half a damned hour just to write this... >.< i've wrote stuff then deleted it and wrote other stuff again countless times...

sigh...

ok, its been some time since i last posted anything here... 1 and a half months if im not wrong... anyway i'll be doing some updates about my life... they wont be in any particular order...

well some idiot stole my file the other day... i left it at the canteen bench outside air room... together with my bag... who the hell would want to steal my file? its not like the notes i do are godly or anything... srsly... what the hell man...

Well ive been skipping AP and remedial... up to date ive only attended 2 maths and 2 english remedials... and none out of the 4 AP sessions...

ive been staying back almost everyday after school to play with the rifles and do PDS till like 7.30 almost eveyday... then walking with the charlies to the bustop at AMK Hub then taking the bus back with 2 of them.

Well ROD is in 2 months time... plus, minus a bit... gonna be real sad when i ROD lol... dont know where i will go after school everyday...

up to date... i've failed every damned test except 1... FYI im a PURE bio student, and i passsed my 1st bio test in 2 years by 2 marks.

i swear im gonna study hard after ROD... i cant screw up my own future...

if you know me well, you'll know that im not the kind of person that gives up easily... i usually say i want to do something, try to do it, fail and get all pissed off and say i dont want to do it anymore. but a few days later i try it again, most of the time i succeed, but there are instances where i fail...

and now, i think this is a time where i fail... we'll ive been trying some stuff, what it is i will not say... but some of you may know... well it was going fine... until i did something which i didn't think through properly before i did it... and now its all screwed up... i want to try again... but i'm scared that by doing so it will just aggravate the situation...

well, i guess it was a longshot from the start... and they are called longshots for a reason... well i still want to hear your reply in my face... only then will i be satisfied... i guess its better to be able to say that i tried and failed rather than i never tried and regret it now...

i really don't want to give up... but it looks like the odds are not in my favor... i guess when life puts an obstacle in front of you sometimes, it wants you to take a different path... and not to find a way to overcome the obstacle...

As years go by,
I'll race the clock with you.

When you make mistakes,
I'll take the fall for you.

So let me light up the skies,
cause it was you i waited for.

You'll always be in my heart,
Until the end of time.

I'm sorry that i failed you... Please forgive me... But don't forget me... For i won't forget you...

Zzz...

comments my part wrote about me:

-can smile more
-can bond more
-very funny
-can say funnier jokes. sometimes a bit kuku
-quite nice, can bond with us, dont keep swearing
-always scold "dude". quite nice
-SMILE!!!
-guided us well, can be more cheerful during trng
-face abit funny, childish but fun
-strict/fierce
-strict at times, interactive. smile more
-funny at times. emo... sentimental...
-try to :)


so basically i need to:

-smile more.
-bond more? (some say can bond some say need bond more... -confusing leh)
-stop swearing
-be more cheerful during trngs
-be more interactive (some say interactive some say never talk enough... wth... >.<)
-be less fierce? O_o

srsly... i swear i dont say "dude"...
emo and sentimental << wth? who write de >.< i where got emo?!

screwed up day...

today had bio test... i totally did not study for it... i doulbt i will actually pass it... the question on what bacteria was used to culture insulin in labs, i wrote Lactobascillius idk where the heck i actually came up with that word O_o and i have absolutely no idea what is a trachea O_o

anyway today was the 1st day without weizhe. i swear it was a freaking wierd feeling O_o usually i will go out of the air room and talk to the Charlies before they start their training. so usually weizhe will be there and we will start talking crap. but today there was no weizhe, and he not taking part in the conversation was just, well, wierd...

aero training today was damn xian... but the comments that they wrote about us at the end of the training was entertaining O_o i really dont get it how i am very serious during aero trainings O_o cause personally i find myself quite slack O_o and come on srsly... i dont smile enough? and how am i fierce during aero? i dont even scold O_o anyway the comments were really entertaining :P

...

k ive decided to start another 2 campaigns...

1st campaign: swear less. i know that to stop swearing completely is an impossible task for me, i am going to swear less. in view of this, i have removed the 2 obscene pictures from my blog.

2nd campaign: i dont wanna say what this one is about. but you guys might find out soon enough. O_o

im sorry...

to wei zhe,
i'm sorry for not being able to send you off to the airport at the last moment... it is not because i dont want to, it is because i am not allowed to... i will admit that im not in very good terms with my parents and they were being dogs again today... i will also admit that as i am typing this i am indeed crying, i just regret that you are not able to see it before you leave...

staying in a big house is good... but there are stuff that you dont actually realise... having a big house means having alot of money... alot of money means that your parents work long hours and you hardly get to see them... which means that you will not be anywhere near close to your parents... i will admit that on average, i speak less that 5 words to them each day... asking for permission to go for or to do something is like... i dont know how to explain this but asking them for their permission is a very difficult task... firstly cause i hardly see them... secondly they dont really know me very well and that means that they dont really trust me...

to prove this point, i shall give you an example... today i sms-ed my parents that i wanted to go send weizhe off at the airport. they didnt believe me... my mom actually send a text to miss chew asking her if any of my classmates were migrating... now i know the reason how miss chew know when she asked me who was the friend migrating today in class... miss chew replied that she didnt know and would ask me, but never got back to my parents. (im not saying its her fault in anyway) my mom send me this "i have asked miss chew about your classmate (i never said it was a classmate) and this is her reply. ( i do not know of anybody in the class who is migrating. it may be a friend of his or from another class or level.) if you are not telling the truth, don't got to the airport later on."

they also forced me to go home, which is the reason why i am not at the airport now but at home typing this... 1st thing i stepped in the house they started screaming at me about telling lies and stuff like that... i will tell you, they are total fucking assholes... (i am trying to swear less on my blog posts but this is one of the special exceptions...) usually i just let them rant and rave at me, cause i know that what ever that i have to say to defend myself the won't believe me... but no, today was different... i could'nt take it any more and i argued back... i was so angry that i let a few profanities slip out... i just hope that they dont ban me from comp for another 3 months... cause that was what happened when i sweared the F word at my father the last time...

to be honest... i would rather live in a normal HDB flat with parents that actually trust me... and not rant and rave at me when they do not know the truth... sometimes i even wonder why i was born into this family and wish that i had actually been born into another better family...

weizhe, i have said this many times to you before but i will say it again... i have really enjoyed my time with you and wish that i had more time to stuff with you and the charlies... i wish you all the best for your future (again) and please stay in contact with us... i will never forget you and i hope that you will always remember us... farewell...

i will post the pictures and videos i took this afternoon tomorrow when i get home... provided my SD card does not screw up...

bai bai...

ok so im pretty much speachless atm... im not one who is good with words... yet alone farewells... usually its just a goodbye handshake and i never see the person again... but i swear this is gonna be different. i planned to cry on rod. but since you wont have a chance to see that. i will do it for you tomorrow... on the condition that somebody else agrees to do it to. anyway so ive heard that your flight has been re-scheduled to tuesday at 9.30am... sadly this means that we cant send you off... i actually planned to get you a farewell gift... but i may not be able to do so now as the date change was very last minute... but we'll see what i can rush out... worst come to worst i treat you to something tomorrow... im really at a lost for words now... all i can say is that trainings from now on will never be the same again without you there... no more bloody bugger that pins all his badges but forgets his nametag... no more idiot that starts shaking his head when he makes a mistake when giving commands... i seriously want to say more, but then again i seriously cannot think of any more to say... so i will just abruptly end it here... once again... farewell and best of luck in all you do... dont forget us... and always remember... we will never forget you...

your platoon mates actually suggested to me that we pon school on tuesday to send you off at the airport... i hope you realise that you mean a great deal to them... seeing how they cried at the playground today suprised me... cause even the guys cried... i admit, i actually did shed a few tears at a point of time...

for the rest of the charlies... i will do an individual dedication for all of you guys when i ROD... so in the mean time, wait patiently...

so now you're gone...

this post is dedicated to one of my cadets... in 3 days time he will be migrating to Perth, Australia and we will most probably never get to see him again...

To "him":
dont know if i should be sad and cry, or to be angry and slap you... i know you cant see this... but with the deepest sincerity from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all the best in your future endeavors...

when you need cheering up, just think of all the shit you went through with all of us...

most importantly, don't you ever forget us...

i find it very unfair that you have gone through 3 years of shit with us and have to leave now... just a mere 3 months before you guys take over... and by jove are you a big case of wasted talent...

3 months to your most enjoyable year in NCC and you are going to miss it...

you have been an exceptional cadet with lots of leadership qualities... and i have really had a good time taking you... be it during training or just talking crap...

i wish you all the best in the years to come, and please... go get a facebook account so that all of us can keep in touch with you... you leaving is sad enough for us, not being able to be in touch is going to be much worst...

Sincerely,
sgt kianwai

argh...

so my weekend was totally boring... had to wake up early on sat cause i had 3 hrs of tuition... sucks... after tuition came home and slept... sunday was boring also... woke up, played comp, went to the library, came home and slept again.

was very bored to i ask on fb to see who wanted to go for a bike ride. ended up going with snr choon kian. stepped into the shower when i came home after my ride... leg felt pain as hell... realised that i scrapped him leg on my METAL bike pedals somewhere along the trip and didnt know...

got physics test tomorrow... and guess what? my physics textbook is happily lying under my table in school... kianwai.gg-no-re.com.org >.<...

other random updates

O lvls are this year... i know i need to study but i just cant get myself to study... xian man >.< teachers keep saying 10 months of hard work will guarantee you 65 years of payouts...

again im in this fked up state... (again) and no! for those who know who the other person is, it isnt about her this time!

decisions, decisions, decisions... yes? or no? if yes, there is another question... do it? or dont do it... if do it, do it now? or wait till later? >.< argh... cant make up my mind... and if do it, i dont have the guts to! so how can i do it?! >.< demoralizing ttc...

so i'll end off this update with something...

life offers many difficulties in exchange for a few moments of happiness...
these moments are worth a life time...

13th jan, saimen's bday :P

so saimen's bday was coming up. i decided to plan a bash for him. so i went to get stuff for his bash on monday. bought choc sauce, sparkling wine and starch flour (total cost 13 bucks btw) then i went home and put it in the cupboard... went for tuition after that... halfway during tuition my mother called me... made an excuse saying i needed to toilet to answer the call.

Mother: did you buy a bottle of chocolate sauce?
Me: yes. why?
Mother: your sister just drank it.

in my head i was like shiiiiiiit >.< that bottle of choc sauce cost $5.30 if i remember correctly... so after tuition i went to get a bottle of soya sauce to replace it...

on tuesday after school, i went home and was feeling hungry... raided the fridge for something to eat and guess what i found? my bottle of chocolate sauce, half empty >.< buried at the back of the fridge... probably my sis's ingenious plan to hide it from me...

decided to blash him on thurs. so we waited until the charlie's fs training was over. but LC went to scold them so we wernt in the mood to actually do anything... but wth, while they were practicing pds outside the field after training, some random fellas started chasing saimen and started to tau-pok him O_o so i ran into the air room and took the stuff out.

sherrill was taking the soya sauce and i keep shouting at her "dont pour on me! dont pour on me!" in the end she poured it on me also >.< saw dominic drinking the choc sauce, snatched the bottle from him and poured it over his head :P saimen was very pityful with all the stuff over him, but i wasnt satisfied :P i rubbed the leftover choc sauce and starch flour into his hair :P

saimen decided not to change before going home. so he walked home in his dirty tshirt and pants :P

wanted to give him his present (a bottle of cologne) after his bash but i forgot to bring it >.< so i gave it to him on friday instead :P

Well saimen i hope you had fun :P cause that cost me 15 bucks! but well, i can tell you this. those were the best 15 bucks of my life :D

cca orientation

ok had cca orientation on the 1st saturday of january (cant remember what date that is and cant be bothered to find out) ok heres the stupid thing... Leslie's plans for orientation all failed... they were all turned down by the clts/teachers... day b4 orientation leslie came 2 school early to practice taxing in the parade square... tan song hau saw him and said that he couldnt do that... sucks to be him... so basically 1 plan down... all out effort to decorate the plane wasted...

so i got to wear a fake staff sergeant rank for orientation :P pretty cool really :P whole of part C department having ssg rank :D well orientation wasnt that bad. After orientation went 2 market to eat. then went back to school where we had a chat with the sirs about crap stuff :P had a chat with my part also bout some things.

the pds people played with the sparkling wine sir junli bought to celebrate. feroz found a left over bottle of china coke from CUG council and poured it all over weizhe lol!

holidays

ok so my holidays were pretty boring... was going back 2 school everyday for aero stuff. epic though, had no tuition during the hols so i was very happy... tuition is a dread for me... during the hols i ran out of games to play... so anybody wanna recomend me some? no maple and shitz like that... ohhhh yea... i am happy to say that i did not touch a single book or do a single piece of homework during the holidays. except during conquer O that is... dreaded going back to school... why does the holidays past so fast... my 2 and a half months holidays felt like only a week or 2... >.< O lvls this year... i know i need to study, but i just cant get myself to study...

updates

ok, its been quite a long time since i've posted anything here... close to a month actually. and im very bored today so i'm gonna do an update.

Things to update
1. holidays
2. cca orientation
3. saimen's bday
4. some other crap

taiwan trip

ok just got back from taiwan yesterday, didnt blog cause i was having a mother fucking big ass headache...

Tour agent told us lowest temp would be about 20 degrees... so i packed t shirts, long pants and jeans... when we arrived at taiwan airport, our tour guide told us the lowest would be about 7-8 degrees. well i thought he was a crazy mother fucker... untill... (i will say why later.)

Places i visited are not in order cause i cant remember what i did on what day and in what order.

Daxi Ocean Flower Farm Ranch.
Big ass 16 hectars filled with flowers. Flowers there were quite nice... But mother fucking 16 hectars is a long way to walk... as you can guess i was damn tired after that...

FengJia Night Market
Well a night market is a night market. Mother fucking crowded place, even worst than singapore de. And i tell you, if you dont like smelly toufu dont go there... cause alot of the stalls are selling it... and the whole mother fucking market smells of it.

Some Biscuit Factory (idk the name)
Made some biscuits they called "tai yang bing" or "sun biscuits" i found it rather stupid cause i dont really like doing these stuff... Anyway they dont taste very good also...

LuGang Township
LuGang means "deer harbour" idk didnt see any deers there... All we did was walk through all the old streets that used to be packed full with people selling their stuff in the old days... Damn boring...

TianHou Temple
Its a temple. I just sat at the front while the rest went in.

Tian Wei Coastline
Its a coast line what can i say? The bus drove by it.

Salt Field Wetlands
Mounts and mounts of sea salt followed by plains and plains of evaporating sea salt...

AnPing Castle
FYI its not a mother fucking castle... Its some fort left behind by the japanese when they conquered taiwan and blah blah blah, wasnt really listening to the guide...

Old Street
Its a street that used to be full of people selling stuff

Tainan Night Market
Same as the other 1... Smelly and crowded...

Formosa Aboriginal Cultural Village
I thought it was gonna be crap... But when we got there i realised something... It was a mother fucking theme park! Woot! But wasnt very big. Sat on the roller coaster (damn fun alot of turns and loops) some 3d space adventure and that thing where they bring you to idk how tall then suddenly drop you. Didnt ride the 1 that splashes waster cause it was mother fucking cold...

Tai Yi Educational & Recreational Farm
Fucking nice place i tell you. Guess what? The room inside the toilet got a bloody SPA!!! Filled the whole thing and stayed in there for an hour.

Sanyi Woodcraft Street
I was fucking amazed at the wooden sculptures... And he prices!

Fruit Farm
Mother fucking stupid... Ended up being a small little pathetic tomato farm...

Hsinchu BeiPu Old Street
Same as the other 2...

ShanDi Local Product
I was like wtf is this? Ended up to be some shop selling lingzi...

ShiLin Night Market
Same as the other 2...

Chaing Kai Shek Shilin Residence
Argh this was some garden and home of former president Chiang Kai Shek

Bixie Shop
Acutally some feng shui shop >.< Bloody hell my parents bought me some idk what dragon looking like thingy that im supposed to wear around me neck >.< WTF much!

TamShui Old Street
Same as those before...

Fisherman's Wharf
Fucking boring place... Basically its just a marina and dock...

Ximending
Its like a night market but in the day and in the night. They had people selling things in push carts. Didnt know it was illegal until they started running away when the police came O_o Then guess what? Once the police went away they all came out again LOL!

Ok now i will explain the cold part... It was a mother fucking 7.9 degrees on 1 day... Mother fucking 20 degrees lowest? SMB lar that stupid agency...

And guess what? My tour guide before becoming a guide used to sell BRAS and PANTIES << ROFLED at this so bloody hard.

Thats bout all...

Pictures will be up when i feel like uploading them... Didnt take alot though... rather lazy...

fml ttc...

ok this is really stupid... i dont know why the fuck this is happening and i cant explain why i am thinking like this and i cant explain why i am feeling like this... FUCK!

shit has been happening to me lately... parents decided to send me for tuition on SATURDAYS, which means no more LAN for me... FUCK! good thing is if i get L1R5 24 and below i can get anything i want O_o my parents said "no questions asked" << win.

ok... ive been eating alot of junk food lately and ive been getting sore throats all the time... >.< and now wtf i kenna throat infection... And food poisoning cause i cant stop going to the fucking toilet also...

and as i said idk what the fuck i am doing/thinking srsly... why the fuck and i thinking about something that can never happen... >.< i srsly need to get this shit out of my head...

so i told my parents i am giving up chinese, surprisingly they said ok O_o that means no more fucking chinese tuition and if i continue to get F9 they wont bother O_o yea baby!

im jumping from topic to topic but who the fuck cares... I-NEED-TO-STOP-THINKING-ABOUT-ALL-THIS-CRAP! IT-IS-IMPOSSIBLE-AND-WILL-NOT-HAPPEN!

Ok bye ;D

Dead blog is still dead.

Dead blog is dead...

Updates...

Now blogged for some time mainly cause ive been lazy...

FYE is just around the corner and i figure i'm pretty much screwed... Cause i really cant be bothered to study...

Really dont have much to post about...

Today we went for Bio Life Science class... We koped gloves back to class... Sahrizan filled 4 gloves with water. Maigai burst 1, Fiqar 1 more and Amanda another 1. Epic funny. No teacher for Geo again today. Kae Pheng never come, supposed to be SSRP, Eric Lee come extra teach us >.< Well thats pretty much all. Don't think i will be blogging as often as last time, but i will try to do 1 post a week...

Another boring day...

Dylan asked me to accompany him down to see Mr Ong for hairstyle check today... He argued with Mr Ong that Chewy said it was ok... Mr Ong didn't accept it. Tai Shend gave up physics worksheets again today... I slept and he attemped to wake me and make me do the worksheet 3 times... Mr Ong came up to our class to check the boy's hair cause Dylan claimed that alot of the guys in our class had hair longer than his. Jian Sheng, Boon and Ming Xian got caught... Slept through physics...

Soccer during PE was epicly fun! Gotta play soccer with 3/2 again some day!

Some stupid cheng yu test during Chinese... As you expected, i didn't know a shit... So i just anyhow tikam some thing come out... Went home after school, played comp, wanted to sleep for a while cause was tired, ended up sleeping until 6.15pm >_<...

Stupid cough...

Stupid cough go away!!! Today was boring... Slept through chemistry... Was listening to songs with zan during maths... Slept through english again... Sex Ed talk during assesmbly not as good as i expected it to be... Maths AMA presentation in afternoon. Vids were quite fail... Rained when i wanted to go home... Ran in the rain :D

Zzz...

Today was a boring day... Some Life Science thing in lab during Bio... Xian like hell... Late for physics lesson, Chewy didn't scold or anything O.o Stupid Ms Low came and kpkb me during recess about working harder and crap like that. I was eating some sausage bun in front of her and she didn't say anything about it rofl. Slept during Hairul's lesson. Played Maigai's phone during maths. Kae Pheng wrote some solutions on the board and erased it damn fast before i could copy finish, i said something like "Fk lar Ms Ng! Nice 1 lar jibai!" i think she heard it cause i said it pretty loudly O.o Bio extra lesson after school >_< sat with sam, idiot was trading pokemon with Bjorn. Skipped tuition again cause idk why just dont feel like going...

Sick...

Ok last i posted was on Sunday... Since then ive been coughing like some fktard with TB... Saw a doctor on Monday... Today actually plan to go to school. But i woke up saw the clock 7.15am ok wtf swa back to sleep. So i slept for a total of like 15 hrs WTF?!

Screw Physics and Chemistry!

Lol waddafuk >_< i spent 3 fking hrs trying to understand physics and chem today but wtf after 3 hrs my knowledge was still 0... Screw that! I guess imma just study bio and the rest of my subjects!

I need to start studying... Like srsly...

I planed to study over the weekend... But guess what happened today...

Original Plan:
9am - wake up, brush teeth, breakfast
9.15am - Comp for 1 hr
10.15am - study physics till 1pm
1pm - Lunch
1.15pm - study chem/phy
5pm - what ever else i want to do...

What I did today:
10am - Wake up
10.30am - Comp 1 hr
11.30am - chem for 5 freaking mins
11.35am - lunch
11.50am - NAP
5.30pm - WOKE UP (I SLEPT FOR 5 HRS AND 40 FUCKING MINS!)

Shit man srsly... >_<...

Zzz...

Its really hard to stop swearing when you are doing it without a purpose... Its even harder to do that around you guys...

So 1st day of my campaign was a total failure... But I'm not giving up!

Feels so wierd coming back home so early...

Zzz...

The stuff in my head a seriously a mess whch i can't sort out and organise properly... Everything is jumbled up and i can't settle stuff... I said that i was giving up, then said i gave up, then thought that i liked her again WTF? *slaps self* wake up dammit >_<

So i've realised some things... I have been using more and more swear words lately... As well as pointing middle finger at every little thing... So once again i am going to start a "swear less campaign" for myself... It worked last time but after i gave up on you know what i started swearing all over again... This time i will make sure that i will reduce the amount of swearing and make sure the level drops and not rises...

I've realised some other things as well... I've pretty much stop wacking people. (wayne is an exception...) See that proves it! I'm friendly! Even Fiqar says that!

Ohh well thats all for now... And i seriously need to stop using the comp and start studying for my FYE... >_< xian...

And no! I am not removing those 2 animations at the side of my blog!

Updates

Not been posting for some time cause exams are coming and i am gonna spend less time on the comp. 1 hr a day to be precise... So its been almost a week since Miss Chin is gone, I realise that you don't actually appreciate somebody till he/she leaves... Now im missing Miss Chin and wishing she will come back... Mr Lee sucks TTM... >_< Every fking morning use CLASS INTERACTION period to give us physics worksheet to do... I know you want to help us improve but WTF man... Cut us some slack... Guess this is what happens when you have 2 physics teachers for you FT,assistant FT...

Ok cousins from Melbourne came down to visit... Reached my house at about 11.15pm on Tuesday night... Stay on Wed and they have gone to KL to visit my grandparents and aunts there... Coming back next Tues or Wed lol...

Well all i hope now is that i can get into the "study mood" and start studying instead of slacking... Hope i can get some relatively good results for FYE... Slim chance of that but hey! If you put in the effort, anything is possible...

Me rabbit died O.o

Today was quite stupid lol... Bio in the morning followed by english... Recess after that then geog... Stupid thing was no teacher came in for geog... So 2 periods of SSRP... Class feels wierd without Miss Chin around... Nobody to say "pick up the litter on the floor" early in the morning... And Mr Lee Tai Sheng is just xian... Plain xian... He me and Dylan to put our legs down 4 times... After that he just gave up... Miss Ng PMSed in class again today... Freaking epic i tell you... VE was damn funny... Miss Chew gave us some situations and made us persuade the girl to have sex with you... Wayne and Samuel was fking epic. And i just realised samuel is a stupid fag... He said "I thought girls first time fuck got JUICE come out of the pussy?" juice FTW! He doesnt know what "flick the bean" means also... Came home and sis was like "rabbit died" i was like "Ehh? O.o" mum said the vet said it died of heatstroke O.o no idea how.

I are got owned by a cat...

Today was stupid... Woke up at 10... Comped then read a book, lunch and slept till 5pm... So i went out to the park, neighbor's cat was there... It is a friendly cat, but today idk what the fuck happen to it... I was sitting on the bench, it jumped and and set beside me... So i stoked it... And guess what happened... The fucking thing went into a fit, scratched my hand and ran away what the fuck?!

Saturday 11/9

Went to Maigai's house to do Maths AMA today... That fking BX! Tell me meet at 12... I reach liao, call him "ehh 13.30 aready meh?" I was like what the fuck!? That BX ar say he got everything liao... End up he never bring camera, straw, paper clip... I tell you ar, we at Maigai's house host party liddat... 3 Bottles of soft drinks and 3 packets of chips rofl... Anyway went home after that to edit the fking video cause his fking laptop the movie maker got prob 1...

Another boring day as usual...

Woke up at 9am... Breakfast then comp... My mum asked my maid to fry bacon for breakfast... Guess what she fried? She sliced the roast pork like bacon and fried it WTF man >_< Went to thomson plaza after that... Cut my hair, ate lunch and went to the super market... Went home, slept for a while then read some books... I read 2 books today rofl... Thats pretty much all for today...

As usual... Another boring day...

Some stupid med checkup in the morning... (again) Went back home, slept then went for maths tuition... Came back, dinner and comp again...

Ohh yea... I did somethings that i am not supposed to do today >_< (again)

Anothing boring day...

So today was stupid... Had to go for some eye checkup at Tan Tock Seng cause my degree is very high... Fuck xia i tell you... They put some eye drop into my eyes... Pain like shit liddat, the fking nurse ask him dun rub dun open my eye dun touch my eye >_< Jibai xia! Some more have to do 3 times... After that the doctor use some machine to check my eyes then wore that thing that you know miners wear on their head with 1 light in the center? Use that stupid thing shine into magnifying lens into my eye... Effing bright xia i tell you... Then he dropped some orange shit into my eye... For 6 fucking hours all i could see was some BLURRY ORANGE image... So i went home and slept till 6pm...

2nd day of holidays...

Geog extra lesson today... Last time that we will be seeing Miss Chin before she leaves the school... Man i swear i will miss her... Best geography teacher ever imo... But hey, just gotta deal with the fact that she's leaving... Just hope that Ismail will not be our geography teacher after this... Well had our lesson in the AVA room. Lots of people didn't turn up for the lesson lol... Amanda didn't come so i smsed her "oi pon lesson ar?" at 12pm she replied "omfg omfg omfg i just woke up" well gj to her, missed Miss Chin's last lesson with us... Played the farewell video that was made for her... Freaking epic i tell you... Jennifer added "i love Yu Jing" to Sahrizan's dedication... And the Samuel Woo added "i love Kian Wai" to his... After class wanted to do Maths AMA but we didn't have the stuff required... Bjorn started burning a teddy bear wtf lol... Went home and botted some more... Got some freaking Med Checkup tomorrow... Xian...

Xian...

Well today was a bloody boring day... Woke up at 8am... Comped for about 1 hr then i got bored... Switched on RS bot and autohorn lol... so i was botting and autohorn-ing through out the whole day... I realsed something... Rune berserker shield looses is durability very fast... I repaired it at around 11am... Now its at 0% charged... WTF xia... Finished my 2k feathers on fishing so now im going combat training... Leveled 1 strength today and now halfway through the next level...

Miss Chin's Farewell BBQ

So Miss Chin is leaving at the end of this term... We are all going to miss her... Rushed to Jennifer's house after gold TD for the BBQ... Played volleyball first... Then fiqar and idk who else started pulling people into the pool O.o Bjorn jumped in with his phone rofl, Maigai got pushed in with his phone in his pocket! I was like "you dump Jason in i will jump in" So jason got dumped in and i jumped in. Started playing like mad ppl in the pool lol... Chatted with Miss Chin after that about random stuff like whos the most chio in the class and stuff like that... Went home at about 11.30 cause i was freaking tired... But it was a hell of a fun day...

I <3 class 3/4!

Gold TD Course

Hitched a ride from SM's father today for TD Gold... Supposed to meet them at 6.20am at Toa Payoh station... But SM's father said that he scared cannot reach in time... So i ended up meeting them at 6am at Ai Tong School the bus stop there... Guess how long the ride to Joo Koon MRT took? 22mins... So we were standing there waiting like idiots for bout 45k mins... Went to SDC to meet them cause they were late and cabbed there... Started off our day with some board game thingy... Followed by walking round the Army Museum with some stupid phone that didnt work properly... Had lunch after that... Went to IGTS whoooo!!! Epic fun i tell you! Had a demo on the mortar and err cant remember what the other demo was... Played with the MG, M203 grenade launcher and the rocket launcher (cant remember the name out of a sudden wtf? >.<) Trained back to Bishan then took the bus home...

Screw that Blackie...

Physics lesson today, Miss Chew told us Mr Lee Tai Sheng... She scolded the class cause some of us booed anyway... Had out last PE lesson for the term today... Mr Lian was like "Last PE lesson, free games!" Everybody started cheering. Played soccer and guess what... Blackie stepped on my left toes, thinking that was not enough, he pumped the ball right into my right toes... Pain like xiao i tell you... I spend the rest of the day walking round barefooted... Couldn't wear No.3 shoes... So i helped SM clean air room. Now the room is frigging clean i tell you!

Thursday 26/8/2010

Class was rather boring today... Proposal check after school... Slacked in the comp lab... Thats about all for that day...

Updates

Ok not been posting for some time cause i have been lazy... As usual i shall post day by day...

Monday
Had maths test today, either i get everything correct and get some imba high score... Or like my remedial worksheet get everything wrong and get some imba shit low score... Told my mum had kayaking today :D so i skipped tuition. Me and SM kbed LC over MSN lsat night, so she called for a meeting. Leslie started shooting all sorts of stuff at her.

Tuesday
Teacher's day celebration today... Freaking xian... Suprised the teachers by changing class rooms. Took a imba class picture with Miss Chin, everybody was pointing middle finger! ROFL! Miss Chin is leaving in 2 weeks... Sad much... Had some AMK warrior after that at ISH, played iTouch all the way through. Recess then AMK got talent... The Alumni band sucked ttm... But AMK got talent rocked!

Went back to primary school after that... Met up with 3 of my friends at Sembawang MRT then headed there... I realised that the 4 of us were the only ones from our bath that went back... Zzz... And guess what? The teacher i wanted to see did not come to school... >.<

Wednesday
LAN with -InFecTeaM- today... Went to Sam's house after that. Skipped tuition... (again) Been skipping lots of my tuition these days O.o Thats about all for today... Ohh yea saw Amanda, Yun Fann and Cher Yuen at Hub when we followed Kinanny to buy a new mouse...